I too prefer it when people type properly, but I don't think any more or any less of people who don't. I might cringe when reading a few poorly put together posts or messages, but otherwise I'm not bothered. It just makes it easier for me to read and understand if someone took that extra time to type a full word or sentence out, or use proper grammar. I also tend to learn more from those people, ways to improve my own spelling, grammar and structures. If you look back on some of my very first posts to the forum, you can see how I've improved. But all in all, it's just more considerate and makes for a nicer place to hang out. If I wanted to read and type like how most people do in text messages, I'd get a phone contract and text people more often for fun, or look down my wall on Facebook.

Also, I don't know how you calculated that people who type "properly" get more sex. Completely untrue. Even so, so the hell what? They probably get more sex because they're in a relationship or put themselves about. It has nothing to do with how they type. I bet half the couples you know don't even know how their better half types outside of an instant messages service.

Obviously, it helps sometimes when you can type "properly". If you're at school or college, a teacher might not even bother to mark your work unless it has some form of structure and is easy on the eyes. So it's good to at least try and type better, and you're in a good place to practice. I think I learnt more about spelling, grammar and structure on these forums in two years than I did in the twelve years I was in lower education.

You keep putting yourself down, and that worries me. Life isn't going to be easy, and you're still young I'm gathering. You don't need a hot girlfriend to get by. You do need a job though, and it doesn't sound like you're trying to get one yet. Do yourself a favour and look - looking will help take your mind off things, and when you do have one, you'll have some money to enjoy and pay back your bills with. Take up some volunteer work as Alpha suggested too and put what you find and do on your resume/CV. It counts as experience, and shows you to be an honest and caring person.

Also, you're a man of God? God wouldn't want you to give up so easily, and looks down on suicide. That's a cowards way out of something that can be easily sorted out if you latched on to your circumstances instead of running away from them. I'd like to think you're not a coward. You just need a kick in the right direction. There's people you can talk to about where to go and what to do next, usually at a school or college, so maybe you should try there? Ask your parents and friends if they need any help with anything, of if they know of any jobs available.

As for your bills... they'll always be there until you find a way to pay them back. Most people have their student loans and medical bills well into their lives, and they still wake up in the morning and do what they have to do with a carefree smile on their faces.

You're a lot better than you're making yourself out to be. I wish you the best of luck, but you need to take that step forwards to actually achieving something. We can only offer advice.