Results 1 to 30 of 59

Thread: For the sake of my soul

Threaded View

Previous Post Previous Post   Next Post Next Post
  1. #11
    Amor fati. For the sake of my soul Tiger Lily's Avatar
    Join Date
    Jul 2006
    Location
    Australia
    Age
    32
    Posts
    1,014

    A deep thinking session and a lack of conclusion.

    Mood: Thoughtful
    Music: Untouched - The Veronicas
    Talking to: Liss, Sam, Cilla, Ben
    Quote of the Day: "George, I'm bored." - Merry

    I'm bored, too. I haven't done anything this afternoon. I went to my room, got into bed and sat there thinking and texting Merry. She's been great these last two days. She gets it, and other don't. Liss is optimistic as usual, but I don't know. She seem a little too much so to be sincere. Ah well. Whatever.

    It's odd. When we're on MSN, we talk like we used to. I can still tell him stuff. I can still keep a confidence. And I can almost forget what's changed. But when we see each other in person, it becomes awkward - to me at least. And maybe I don't show it, but it's there. I don't know how to act - how much contact is acceptable? Can I acknowledge what we had - what we have? Can I still bring up little inside jokes? Like I said to Liss earlier, it's almost as if there's a barrier there, only I never know how far I am from it. Does that make sense? It's like I don't know where to draw the line. Because things aren't like they were, no matter how much I wish they could be.

    And, you know, now that I've had time to reflect, I can't feel anything but thankful. Not that we broke up, but why we did. He did the right thing by himself and me, and even if he doesn't think he's mature enough to handle it, that very act shows that he is mature to some degree. And all I can really say is 'thank you'. And I'll wait. I'll wait for him to come back.
    Although that does have its flip side, as everything in this world does. It means that I don't have that emptiness that was there before. Like now all I've got is hope for the future, a blind faith. And I'll cling to it. I just wish I had something more substantial. Or even something less so that I could be truly miserable like I sometimes want to be. But, you know, the misery won't come. Isn't that horrible? I can't even cry anymore. There's just... Nothing. And I thought I was coping. Ugh.

    I guess I'll just take it one day at a time, and try to work out how I feel. That's the key, I suppose. To work out my emotions and get a hold of them. Can't think with your heart all the time, or you just lose all sense of reason. Blegh.

    Anyway, I'll leave it here as I can't think of anything more to say that's halfway intelligent. Later all.

    Til then,
    Lily
    Last edited by Tiger Lily; 02-11-2008 at 05:03 AM.

    [ Spaghetti ] - [ Petition for FFVIII Remake ] - [ Lily's LiveJournal ]

    "Everything dies."
    Sig and av are, as usual, made by me.
    STOCK IMAGE

    TFF Family, Quotes and Awards:

    {My TFF Family}

    Froggie, Rocco, Craven, Cilla
    Beanie, Martin, Fishie,
    Bleachie, Xeim, Omega



    Because we're clones.

    Classic Quotes:
    George: oh these ff people got tactics
    Rachel: Yes. Final Fantasy Tactics. *shot*

    Callum: why have you got a slurred russian swear word in your pm
    Callum: khoi is practically the biggest insult you could ever give anyone lol
    Rocco: Does he know it's a fish?

    ON A RANDOM BIMBO
    Cilla: She needs a reality check.
    Rachel says: She is a kissass.
    Cilla: She really is.
    Rachel says: Her personality annoys me. D:
    Cilla says: Her name annoys me.
    Rachel says: She is stupid. xD
    Cilla says: She has herpes, I reckon.

    Bean: Irvine could go for a walk in NORG's ass.


    TFF owning Morons:

    George:
    OKAY HERE WE GO
    ANN WHY ARNT U AT WORK BY NOW IT PAST 8 AND UR LATE FOR UR HOOKER SHIFT
    ROCCO BL IN ENGLISH TEACHER....ULL PROBS BE LIKE GRADE1 TEACHER
    Rach....Enough said
    [^ win!!]

    Rocco: WE WIN x infinity.


    Rocco is straight, but has awful timing:

    ON DAVID TENNANT
    Rocco: I swear, if I ever see him, I'll steal him and shove him in my cupboard.
    Rocco: Lovingly, of course.
    Rocco: And we can get married in the TARDIS. *0*
    Rocco: IT PERSONIFIES HIM! SEX ON LEGS!
    Rocco: <333333
    Rocco: *fangirl squeal*

    Nathan: Did you just come out of the closet?
    Rocco: Oh, yeah.

    ON THE VIAGRA-MAN
    Rocco says: You can change your DP as well.
    Rocco says: Even though that man is incredibly sexy.

    Froggie: Rocco.
    Froggie: You need to be bisexual.
    Rocco: I am.


    Member of the FF Cult.

    This signature was last accurate circa 2010. Keeping for posterity/lols.

Similar Threads

  1. Do You Believe in Soul Mates?
    By Omega Weapon in forum General Chat
    Replies: 45
    Last Post: 08-17-2009, 07:43 PM
  2. Cries of a Dark Soul (open to anyone who wants a challange)
    By Darkwolf in forum Role-Play Battling
    Replies: 15
    Last Post: 02-25-2008, 04:10 PM
  3. Soup for My Soul
    By Govinda in forum Literature
    Replies: 5
    Last Post: 01-10-2008, 07:59 PM

Bookmarks

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
  •