I tried to grow up fast... recently realized it's not a fun way to live. I'm trying to live a bit more carefree of a life, considering I'm only 22.

Been working in restaurants since I was 18, and it's a stressful industry.

Once I became a back-of-the house person, around 19... the stress started wearing on me. By 20 I was a complete asshole, by 21 and frequent alcohol use I was a bigger asshole than I'd ever been in my life. Not while drunk, mind you, but the hangovers + stress.

The phrases "Shut the **** up." "**** off." "Get ****ed" and "Go **** yourself" were staples in my vocabulary on a daily basis.

I still rant a lot to friends about restaurants... and my rants are generally angry.

A couple of my friends get a kick out of it... I'm a bigger **** than most cooks, and a lot find it humorous because I've only been doing it for ~4 years.