I fear not just death but the act of dying, I do wonder whether even a peaceful death is painful and what it is like. I plan ahead in my life, I like to feel in control and in charge of everything I do, and this is what scares me most, that death can happen at any time, it's the complete opposite of what I do every day, it's unpredictable and that's the most scary thing about it.

Another thing I fear is death taking all my loved ones before me, that I will be a old lady all alone on the planet, that my youngest sister could die before me is very scary. For example my Aunt the youngest sibling out of six is dying of Cancer and there is nothing more the doctors can do. What a horrible way to die, to know you are dying and know you are leaving children behind who still need you, and to wonder what will happen to them when she goes.

However I do believe there an afterlife, I'm a Christian so I believe there is a God but I also believe in ghosts too, after hearing my dad tell some true ghost stories to me as a child of when he was on the building site, things that cannot be explained and things that he can't explain either I really do believe that souls can linger on the Earth before going to the otherside, energy afterall doesn't just disappear it has to go somewhere. So why do I still have that fear? I guess because it isn't put to me in black and white still, the bible can only answer so much it does not state what God's ultimate plan is or why he takes the young sometimes etc... There's still a bit of uncertainty and it is the unknown that I ultimately dread.