The Grand Theatre of Freaks

[Furore]

Why can't people like her let people like me alone?

It's my belief that there could be many causes but the most likely one would have to be some sort of a need for power caused by some sense of insecurity or powerlessness in a previous point in life. Maybe her parents were uptight about she looked or something. Or it might be that for whatever reason she cannot use the same dyes or something. Like the case of a bald teacher who seemed to like trying to give me hell over my long luscious locks.

What is behind the drive and ambition to dominate the extraneous facets of my life?

Pretty much what I said above. She feels the need to control for whatever reason. Might be an inferiority complex she tries too hide, she might have some sort of domination thing going on (if so, don't go out, it could lead to some very weird bed happenings.... ) or then again, she might just have no friends. It's a vicious cycle if that's the case. Turn people off with mean behaviour > Angry due to not having any friends > Turn people off with mean behaviour.

How do all of you deal with someone in a position of supposed "authority" that tries something similar as above?

I do everything in my power to show them that I value my freedoms over pretty much everything else. If they don't like what I do, then who cares? I'll just do something else elsewhere. If I really have to change myself for whatever reason, I'll do it. But then I'll be so nasty about it later that chances are I can re-adapt whatever I had to change with no complaints later. Just gotta keep testing the boundaries I guess.

[Sinister]

Perhaps that is a part of it. But her profile and history of what I know of her doesn't fit the standard Sadistic Personality Disorder. She's a mutant. She seems to have a pretty well-defined self-confidence. But then maybe this is just what it looks like at this stage. She is a perfectionist, which suggests something of what you said.

She just reminds me of a person who is all about business and after she gets her highs from doing her thing to other people. Her greatest targets are those unfortunates of her own gender who are their own distinct persons.

The question is how to deal with her. I can have her fired, albeit by subreption. But I am not her. Why can't I convince her that she is a little more vulnerable and back her off? It's become almost an obsession with me. It's not that I need/care for this job. I just need to destroy one person's delusions of godhood. It is a need, that I convince her to calm down. Does that make me like her?

Should I just walk away from this? Or can I actually save more of her future victims?

-Sin

[Joe]

So, walking freakshows, tell me. Have you ever felt this before, this belonging?

hmmm, only once in my memory. It was this past summer at a camp called "Summer Ventures in Science and Mathematics", a collection of the brightest scientific minds in the state of North Carolina. We were all freaks in our own way, but we were like a family, using our strenghts and weaknesses to work together on several different research projects. The fact that we all lived together for a month helped too. Since that project, I've sort of been wandering aimlessly, as the best way to describe it, since there's no one place that I belong at this point.

Do you think that this feeling, this concept in itself somewhat dilutes your personal classification as 'weirdo'?
Definitely not. I can say from experience that feeling belonging in a group does not dilute my personal classification of weirdo. Basically How could it, if there were a group of weirdos? they would all still be weird, but in their own way.



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