I'm sorry for lashing at you. As much anger as I've expressed in my life, there is quite a bit more than I've ever expressed, being bottled up inside me. I have a serious philosophical conviction not to harm people, or myself...I don't think it's morally right to cause harm to a living being. But man, this world tests me.

Because our communication process has been sped up so, we now no longer place the value on patience and understanding that we once did. We prefer short messages that are easy to understand and emotionally process.
To answer your question, yes, this is the reason, I believe, that I have become so morbidly depressed. I've been sad all my life for reasons that would take way too long to go into and probably be very uncomfortable for someone to hear, but only in the last 10 years or so have I felt like the entire world is getting to the point where vapid apathetic disassociation is preferable to humane treatment of your fellow humans, for most people, and yes, it makes me feel like 10 pounds of monkey crap in a 5 pound bag.

And since communication requires lightness and brevity, or you become ostracized by those around you as a "weirdo," there is no help available except for the next-to-useless psychological research community. You end up on your own more or less.

It's heartbreaking, the dearth of real emotional connection to each other that exists today. If you don't believe me, check out the news sometime. If it isn't people being filled with bullets by someone slightly more enraged than I who doesn't believe in nonviolence, then it's milk-fed, draft-dodging, suit-wearing shitstains pretending their presidency is legitimate.

This society is a powder keg of rage waiting for a spark. I am merely a mostly-burned-out coal that flares up from time to time.

To make my point totally clear: American Society no longer has any sense of what constitutes normal, in our interactions with each other. It sounds like some weird theory, and yeah I guess it is, but it just appears to me as though our culture has become utterly dysfunctional.