I'm so sorry you are having depression issues LocoColt. I have bee under a horrible depression lately as well and have not yet figured out how to get through it. Add to that my weird insomnia issues that sleeping pills sometimes don't help(going to get a CAT scan soon to see if I have a neuronal degenerative disease on my sleep control portion of my brain.. I'm very scared for my life or quality of it if that's the case!) I wish I could help but I'm as lost as you are.

Thank you spooniest for such a helpful response you sound like you have also been through the emotional wringer. Do you still selfharm? I do it would be interesting to meet someone here that also cuts.