Originally Posted by
Rowan
Ive been feeling unfulfilled. To be quite honest, I've been feeling inferior too. Inferior to those with degrees and education through university. I envy that they have knowledge and will one day be practitioners or even leaders in their field of expertise. Even to have a field of expertise is something worthwhile. I myself have only completed a course in IT and I feel like I'm wasting my potential. I dont particularly like IT, I dont find my job particularly challenging, and even more-so, I feel I get very little respect for what I do. My job though has its perks. Such as 3 months paid leave per year and an abundant amount of down time, its 5 minutes from home and pretty much a dream job for anyone who doesnt care about staying here forever - which I do not want to. I need something more.
Im 27 this year, I have been working this position for over 6 years, I have no other qualifications, I plan to buy a home soon and move out (after a failed relationship, this has made things more difficult and stressful) and I have the urge to go and study something, but I feel like at 27 its too late from a financial perspective. I cannot prioritize education over owning a home, for if i dont buy now while I can afford too, I most certainly never will. I have been trying to find a way to do both, but it really doesn't seem possible. It makes me resent where I live, as living costs, house prices and education fees are higher than almost anywhere in the world (especially if we can combine the three into an average overall sum).
I really am at a loss here. All of my friends are graduating or have graduated a long time ago, and here I am sitting in my computer chair scumming through the mediocrity I have created for myself. I often think back to when I was 18 or 20 and yell at myself to study at university instead of working my way towards materialistic bullshit by wasting those precious years at McDonalds and various retailers.
Is it too late? Can I achieve what I want to? How do I do it? I know these are hard questions for you to answer since there really isn't any active Australian users anymore, but I would still really appreciate your insight as you people are some of the most interesting and intelligent people I know.
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