Quote Originally Posted by Rowan View Post
I guess whats been going through my head is that if I were to die tomorrow, would I be satisfied with the things I've learned and things I've done in my life?
That's a very good question, and one that I often ask myself, though our situations are entirely different.

I have been in mental health care for about a decade and a half now, only recently stabilizing on meds for the first time. It finally came out through a lot of research that I was being treated for the wrong condition, overmedicated.

Anyhoo, told you that story to tell you this one; I actually just used the time to create music, any way I could, hook or crook. It has yielded certain results I wanted; that's all I can say at the moment; but I still find myself totally dissatisfied with the outcome, because of someone special to me whom is not here to share this moment.

:/ So I ask myself, "Am I happy with the decisions I've made? Am I a good person?"

This is the trick I learned back in 2010 going through a bad divorce that destroyed my academic career too.

"You can give yourself an A+ every day. The world is happy to fail you for sneezing in a subway car."