Honestly the only thing I look forward to during Christmas time is the opportunity to **** off for over a month. This is my last true week of school, next Tuesday I wrap up finals and I'm free until January 19th.
I'm not big on the gift thing either. I've been unemployed for awhile since part time employment that works around my school schedule seems nonexistent, already feel like enough of a mooch since I'm living off of student loans/parents, and I really don't want people giving me free things when I can't afford to get them anything in return. I sold my Wii and my professional knife set from my days as a culinary student in order to buy a select few people presents and pay my bills next month, but I already know that other people I don't plan to get gifts for will be getting me something.
Granted I don't despise getting the gifts, I just hate saying "Oh, thanks for the gift, sorry I'm broke as **** this year and couldn't get you anything in return."
Holidays have also become more and more depressing since they're nothing like they were when I was a kid. My family's scattered, my dad's slowly losing all rationality and mobility, and no one's ever truly happy anymore. For me the holidays have recently just been going through the motions, they lost their magic when I lost my innocent view of the world around me.
Spending Christmas with my girlfriend's family will just be a charade, just like Thanksgiving was, not to mention I can't really juggle two families, and my Aunt's already pissed I missed Thanksgiving.
Maybe I'm just overly cynical, but to me every day is just a day. December 25th is no different than August 25th. Not even my birthday means anything special to me anymore.
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