Oi hell.
Well, sticking up for yourself where I am from would have caused a jumping. Not something applicable to stand up for. The teachers already knew. And as I stated, I did not start having these feelings until the midst of my second 7th year or the 8th grade.
And of course, being picked on during class and my fuking retarted ass teacher does nothing increases my rage.
If I were to see any one of those kids today, I would honestly get "pulses" of rage through my body and I try to start trouble with them, they don't do anything.
I would love to hurt them, not beat their asses, hurt them.
Actually, because of all of that, I welcome pain and have an unruly attachment to death blahblahblah. Socio? Maybe, psych never said anything about it.

Oh and, as I said, you can't stand up for yourself when you will get jumped by a gang of 3-10 people. Oh how I wish to gaze apon their deadened gaze as I stand above their hindered soul, smiling, as tears of wrath and utter nihility run across my face, dripping unto their lifeless gait, and I know, that last vision they saw, was the vision of their death.
Oh it sounds so ****ING wonderful. ****ING would love to KILL them without thought!!!