TFF of Europe

Whew, I'm back from my week off with my boyfriend and it was excellent.

We put the usage of my birth control pills to the test, and now to cross our fingers and pray to the stalk not to give us a baby. ;!

It was a wonderful time off, though. All that sucks now, is missing him. I doubt I'll see him til next year, to be honest... Which feels terrible, because I'd like to give him his Christmas presents in person... that, and I already miss the cuddles, the kissing and the sex.

Hrrrr... It's going to be a long couple of months...


In other news, my parents are going Christmas shopping tomorrow... so early! I still like with them, and they asked me what I want... I asked for some more artist canvases. I'm down to one really tiny one.

I'm currently painting a new portrait, though... A lighthouse with trees and a sea view. Andrew recommended it, and being an artist, I accepted the challenge. After all, landscapes can be easy-peasy.

What else? Oh yeah, I feel desperately lonely now Andrews' gone. ;(

I actually fell in love with the guy a while ago, so that makes it a Hell of a lot more painful. ;%

Look at me I'm posting!!!!!

Haha, been ages since I posted here. I havn't really read any of yor posts.... I'm just posting to acknowledge that this club still exists ^_^

I'll try to keep popping in... though I keep forgetting to even check TFF these days... narf.

You little British heathen. How dare you forget about us?! ;(

;!

But seriously. Look at me, I'm a Russian-Polski person and I'm in your country, stealing your college courses and jobs and men. Or, man.

damn you you joee joe evil man. come back more often..even I post more than you, haha.
And yeah, love's an evil thing eh chez? :P

Peace out

who thinks britain should join this eu constituion thing i dont because we are a proud country proud of our heritage we also have our own laws and currency that shouldnt have to chand should it

Sorry Vivi baby, the EU already accounts for 70% of the laws that govern our daily lives...don't see that changing. A lot of people and their countries are scared of losing national identity under the EU, but I'm not. We need to band together because we're all so small. Russia and China are rising, the US is still huge, and we need the economic support of a multistate institution to keep us up to speed. I like it anyway.

Uni, uni, uni....going home on Saturday for Andrew's wee play, boyfriend coming to see me the weekend after that for our wee 2 year anniversary day.

****ing hell, two whole years...and aye Chez, this long distance gig sucks! My flat, full of women missing their men, has started smoking menthol cigs in the evenings; they've got double the antiaphrodisiac power of normal fags ;!

lol, lot of times rules in the constitution are gay though or abused many times..
meh I don't really care if you want to have something else, not like you joined the euro anyways :P

Peace out

Weird day.

I collapsed publicly. Oh dear, that was not fun at all! Seriously.

Now I need to go to the trouble of getting blood tests to see if I have diabetes. (It's been a long-running problem I've had since I was a young child, and the doctors "never found anything", so this time, I'm getting something done about it.)

Thank God there was a kind girl who helped me.

Damn, I hope for you they finally work out what's really wrong and give you some working medicines or something.
Passing out randomly ain't cool ;_;

peace out

Thanks! Gah, there's a possibility it was caused by pregnancy, I suppose...

I'm not 100% sure, but yeah. Need to get tested and all that junk... Got pretty upset, cried quite a bit, etc. I'm just crossing my fingers, hoping there isn't a kid... Would pretty much **** everything up right now, as much as I love kids.

Bah...

Anyway, yeah, Christmas is coming. Scary, wallets will suddenly become drained.

Suddenly? Mine's been dead since the word go.

I'm sure you're not preggers, Chez. I don't think babies make you fall over before you can feel them inside you. I'm sure they'll find something for you - Occam's Razor, the simplest answer is often the best.

Just you take care of yourself, dearheart

Thanks. I'd feel a lot beter if I didn't feel sick constantly, though.

I may skip off to the doctor tomorrow. If it's not pregnancy, I still feel like shit, so I don't think a check-up would hurt... ;!

Still scared shitless, can't sleep properly... And now worrying myself silly in an Interweb forum! This is probably a low point in my life... lawl...

even if it would be a kid, you can have it removed still. or are you very religious and against that?
but small chance that you are pregnant.

Peace out

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Originally Posted by Usagy

even if it would be a kid, you can have it removed still. or are you very religious and against that?
but small chance that you are pregnant.

Peace out

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*AHEM*

Or if there is a child you could put it up for adoption...

*Glares at Usagy*

At least then you could make someone happy... And not be a murderer, I mean, what exactly have these babies done to society and-

Oh don't worry, Chezzy. Like Govinda said, you'd probably feel the little bundle of joy kick you in odd places before it tries to make you collapse. Just blame everything on the stresses of college!

Every single sexually active female goes through phases where they're convinced they're pregnant. It's happened to me before. Luckily, I had friends on hand to say 'Don't worry, we've got a bottle of rum and a flight of stairs, you'll be fine!'

If any woman vomits for a few days in a row, feels a bit odd...people share horror stories in the flat. Like how someone knew a girl who was on the Pill (this person is now the stroytellers sister in law), fell pregnant and didn't notice at all because the Pill kept giving her fake periods. She just thought she was getting fat and then whoosh! baby happens.

Seriously, don't worry. Just go to the docs and see what's up.

Speaking of medicine, I'm meant to be getting a lightbox...I feel like such a twat. 'Seasonal Depression' or some shit. ****ing excuses, you can't get depressed because it's not sunny all the time. I live in the north of Scotland for ****'s sake, you can see the Aurora Borealis up here in January (or so I'm told).

Anyway. Me and lightbox. Woo.

Boyfriend coming up tonight!

Usagy, I don't agree with abortion, but I'm not at all religious. On the other hand, there are exceptions for it.

Aerif, thanks! I was defurred from college because they said they wanted me to skip the year and go straight to the best course in the college... so I'm going back come September! ;!

Govinda, how encouraging of your friends, haha. Good luck with fun with the boyfriend, I know how good it'll feel when you two will be able to hug and do that love thang again.



As for the collapsing thing, APPARENTLY (according to mum's I've spoken to), it IS possible to collapse in very early stage of pregnancy... weird, although you're probably right.

Speaking of mums, I told mine. She was surprisingly okay with it...



ALSO, Govinda again! Seasonal depression... It's SUPPOSED to be quite common... It's not convincing, though, is it? Those lights just make you feel giggly... I have depresison, but not of the seasonal variety... Those lights are warming somehow, though.

D'you think it's worth me getting one? For some reason winter always twists me up. I get reticent and angry, cut myself off, and have some pretty fun delusions about the end of the world. When I was younger I used to think of it as a time of change: around late October some huge question, a completely impossible possibility, will arise and sit on my head until March. Back then I thought I had the questions answered - I didn't, I'd just cheered up a bit.

I'm finding it weird since I've moved. For weeks now it's been pitch dark at 4pm - it's just oppressive. My friend and I left the house to go shopping at lunchtime and it was dark on the bus home, and we'd barely been out.

Hmm.

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Originally Posted by Govinda

D'you think it's worth me getting one? For some reason winter always twists me up. I get reticent and angry, cut myself off, and have some pretty fun delusions about the end of the world.

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Well, to be fair, if you can find a cheapish one, they're not bad for creating a warm feeling... Kind of like inner peace, and all that crap.

I've heard it doesn't effect some people, but I know that it does effect others. (If it had no effect whatsoever, it'd kind of be an indication for trading standards to bitchslap the crap out of their puny little companies!)

They are availble at a pretty cheap price... If you decide to buy one, don't go as far as to end up spending more than £8...

You should be able to get a pack of five for that price, last time my friend had them...



Weird, though, I like the Winter. Means' Christmas is coming and Christmas means great food and a new graphite pencil set. ;!

Oh, Christmas, dear Christmas...

I really like it. Can't wait, actually. I'm splitting driving lessons with my dad...oh dear...this isn't going to end well, could all go a bit Marc Bolan.

Fathers + Driving = Not very good.

My dad scared the shit out of my boyfriend when he was driving.

We were going to the train station. Dad starts driving and almost runs into this guy and his dog. Dad swears at the guy, guy, pretty understandly swears back and throws what appears to be a tin can at dads' work van. Dad halts, gets out, runs down the street after guy and dog.

Comes back, almost kills us with his shit driving, blah blah blah.

I hate my dads' driving. My dad can be a twat sometimes, though... Guh. -_-;.

Meh, am sleepy and stuff, can't come up with long stuff to write.
Cept...what is that light box thingy you talking about? :o

Peace out

The S.A.D lamps? :p

You'll find them anywhere that sells a lot of lamps... And a lot of bulbs. Or even online.

Type "S.A.D lamp" into google and see what happens, I guess! ;!

I'm tired, too, but for some reason, I can't force myself to go to bed yet... It's pointless staying up, too. I have an absolutely hideous sleeping pattern. Very rocky, can be annoying when I sleep until 4pm...

I didn't know that you people still existed. Crazy cats and Cuts!

:spam:

I realize that I will be looked upon as a wasp from the sky. A big terrific wasp from the sky!

burning with desire!

I've been having an insomnia party for the last two days

I CANNOT EVEN NAP ANYMORE

And it was pretty much my favourite thing to do too :(

Screw winter. Autumn's way better, it has the good grace to be gorgeous at least, with all its reds and oranges and falling leaves

Annnnnd there goes the fire alarm, again. God.

Aye, Autumn is the best of seasons.

The leaves and the smell of Autumn... Not to mention the ability to produce freshly baked apple or pumpkin pies...

I also enjoy eating cheese more aorund this time than any other... I don't know why... Just because it was Autumn doesn't mean the cows are any better at producing milk... Hmm.

Maybe....they really like this time of year?

When you said that, I vividly saw a very happy farmer yanking at the penis of a cow.

I have no idea why I thought of such a thing. I really hope there aren't any cow sex pictures on the internet. One would be tempted to type it in, but on the other hand, it's just too sick and wrong.

Hmm.

They will be there. This makes me want to cry inside.

lyk srsly.

I'm just going to go back to lolcats.com and pretend the rest of the internet doesn't exist :)

Just so you know... they were there. O_O

Along with many a horse and dog.

It was only a test, but now I'm NEVER typing ANYTHING off-key into google again. Ever. My God... There was this picture... of an udder... and... AND....

I can't even finish what I was originally going to type! It's too sick and wrong!

Why am I tempted...it's there, isn't it?

Oh God. Well. The Uni filter will stop any bad pictures.

No.

I am not typing that in Google. I'm sorry. Any morsel of faith I had in humankind would evaporate.

I'm crying inside now. www.lolcats.com