Love to me is... complicated... Its a feeling I feel for all my friends and family, my pets and non-pets, my hobbies and places to hang out. But when is love for a partner LOVE? I have had partners, but... I don't think I ever felt LOVE for them. I felt something, but was it love for a friend, or a partner? Even my ex said he felt the same - he didn't know what it was we felt, but we both knew it wasn't love. I think I fell for the whole "looks" thing... Looks don't usually mean anything to me - if I like a person, its about their personality, NOT their looks...

I'm still young, and I have the rest of my life to work out what love for me is in the partner aspect. But I know what I love and value most, and thats the important thing right now. I love my family more than anything. I hate my brothers guts, but if anything happens to him, I'd be sad, or even angry! I love my nan, no matter how many arguments she starts at home, and I love my mum, even though I don't get to tell her that often.

Then there are my friends, that I would put first before any partner I have for the rest of my life. I love my friends to bits, but... I often feel maybe... Like if we haven't seen eachother for a long time, I feel I try to make an effort to see them, and they don't seem to bothered about it. Thats hurts. I made arrangements to have one of my friends come around my house a few weeks ago, and the day they were supposed to come, they didn't show. I sent them a mail, and it turns out she was ill after eatting out at Nandos. IF that really happened, then fair enough, but deep down, I know its not true.

Love for the stuff I enjoy: Playing games, learning, chatting, laughing, going out, music, walking, swimming... The list is enddless! A lot of this stuff I can live without, but I love it too much to give up - if you get what I'm saying. This stuff comes after family, friends and partners.

Like I said, I'm only 16. I have the rest of my life to work out what love to me is. At the moment, I try to keep open minded. For all I know, I could wake up tomorrow with a whole different look on love and life and stuff.