I think I would refuse to believe its the end and do something to distract myself from the idea... like read a good book. And I want to die in a way that might be useful to someone, when my aunt died I was 6 and crying on the kitchen floor starving, and I prayed with my mom. Next thing we know there's my pawpaw at the door with a box full of food from her house. We had no idea she had died. So I guess I would want to save someone... I don't want to go to waste or become someones problem when im old, or need to depend on someone else to wipe my as s every day.