You should start singing! because its fun and a great way to get emotions out and then you can live up to your forum name

Also, I strongly recommend making a tff journal so you can post all your feelings and vent/rant stuff there too instead of across the whole forum. As much as I like dealing with people that have severe issues and diagnosing them on a Final Fantasy forum, I also strongly recommend you see a psychiatrist.


On a completely realtalk level, I had a friend who was dealing with issues similar to yours, and he saw some chinese chiropractor/acupuncturist who helped straighten and align out his back while giving him weird herbal supplements. It sounds strange as hell, but for some reason it REALLY helped him out and he was able to turn his depression around dramatically within a very short span. Maybe its something you can ask your doctor about?