I'm not looking for someone else before I break up with him. I'd never do that.

I have spoken to my boyfriend many times before about his lack of respect for me. But he's an angry arrogant person. He's good to me sometimes, but when he does disrespect me, it makes me very unsure.

I know it sounds easy to just leave, but it isn't. It's hard to say that I have failed in this relationship.

I'm not trying to get any sympathy or anything. I just wanted to get it out there. A silly crush is a symptom of my unhappiness. I know I'm the only one who can change things. I guess I'm just scared. Our relationship has survived this long because I've allowed it to.