Fits of rage.

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Woah... I hope your hand is okay.

Bwaahahahaha.

If I'm tipsy/drunk, I don't tend to get angry. Or I've never found myself in a situation when I got angry whilst I was drunk. I get a major case of the giggles, and think I can do things I can't (like touching the ceiling in the living-room, for example. My mum and I were pretty tipsy, and my brother was showing off how tall he was. So she tried to pick me up, but I was laughing too hard so I wriggled out of her grasp, and we both fell on the floor. I woke up with carpet burn up my arms, and a bump on the head where I'd hit the coffee table on the way down xD; ).

It's when I'm sober that I'm most likely to be angry. I'm scared of myself when I get angry, because sometimes I can be blinded by my own hate of the situation and lash out. I have Nerd Rage, where if I'm pushed and pushed and pushed, you should expect one almighty reaction from me. I give out warnings when I'm being pushed, and people usually stop after the second warning if they know they're in big trouble if I have to give out a third warning. There was this one time me and my brother were arguing, and for some reason he thought it would be a good idea to kick at my lower area - and guys, lemmie tell you it ****ing hurts just as much on women than men if enough force is put into the kick. I remember falling on the floor, winded, then tears started and then out of nowhere I've launched myself off the floor at my brother in one massive fit of rage.

What I did to him, I won't say because I'm ashamed of it. I really really hurt him to the point he was frightened to come anywhere near me for a few days afterwards.

Now, if I'm angry, and I can get away from a certain situation, I'll just go somewhere quiet, take a few breaths, possibly cry it all out, and come back feeling better. Crying is good for me, because you can just push so much frustrations out of it, and it's usually how I cope when the shit hits the fan. It's better than punching a wall, lashing out at someone, or smashing things around.