My fiance' ive been with for 6 years broke up with me. 2 days later admitted sucking another guys dick. She told me she made a mistake and wanted to get back, I said we can take things slow. things were going well and another 3 days later she tells me she still has feelings for this guy and that we hsould just end it... again. We are in the middle of building a house together, contractually obligated cant get out of it, but i dont give a shit. She seeing a psychologist for help about some issues with herself that just came out of nowhere. I dont know what to do, my entire life and plans are gone, but what hurts the most is that I still love her and I feel I know who she really is, and this isn't her.


People are supportive, but it doesnt help me. I'm an emotional guy and ive been thinking about what I could do. I've been thinking about the easiest way to kill myself, because everything ive ever loved has been taken away from me. Ive never felt this kind of depth before, this kind of low. Without getting into details, I know in my heart there is no hope and Ill never trust a person ever again.

you are like a family to me, ever since I joined this forum 6 years ago.

I need help