i made this thread 5 years ago and i was pretty sad with the reply i got

Would celes like me?

but depending on some people's definition of weak, i am a complete failure who failed survival of the fittest and i should just drink all my beers with my ambien and Vicodin and shoot myself tonight - but i deal with mental illness in a way that very few people can understand, and the way that i'm still here after 28 years of living in a nonstop burning hell and i think in a way that is a sign of courage and strength. And it's because of my suffering that i am able to empathize with other people who also struggle in life and i think the world needs people like me and i shouldn't kill myself and i am a good addition to this world and i think celes would like me. The worst part about not having a girl like you is feeling like you aren't good enough for anybody.