(...) Then you're the biggest liar of all.
(...) I do know that. My brother's been in prison a few times and the fighting. I mean, he used to threaten my mum when he wasn't given money for weed and then my other brother, Brian, would come in and batter the crap out of Jamie and I'd have to run out the house with my mum and ride around in the car for a few hours. So many of my games and things have been smashed and sold. I didn't get anything to my self. But, I put on the smile and no one knows what I really feel. I never tell a soul about how I'm feeling and once, I had to read at my nana's funeral and I didn;t shed a tear then. That was 4 years ago and I've never cried from emotion. Just physical pain. Don't you understand Ralz? I hate lies so much. I never allow anyone to get away with it. The worst thing is that he keeps doing it. I feel like punching the wall or shooting him in the face. I know that I can't trust people on the internet but you know, this is the only place that I can share my true feelings. On the outside, I dance around and joke as if I didn't have a care. Though, I hurt inside...
(...) I've lost plenty as well. You know this, but my grandfather's dead, too. My grandmother's dead, my dad's mom is dead, my dad's dad is dead. My dad once went to jail, and I was there for the whole thing. You think you're the only one in this world who has to put on a happy face? I spent years dealing with deaths and departures. I dislike happy, I'm not for it. And now with this, happy is the last thing on my mind. And this thing going with Ethan. I hate lies as much as the next guy. But when you get to be my age, its all natural. People lie all the time where I come from. You just... can't trust people like you used to be able to many years ago. Its a cruel world we live in. I haven't even shed a tear with emotion in years,
(...) Yeah, Brian. He's the one with a big house, four jobs and wife now. But then, my mum didn't have a job. My brother was always destroying all the school and getting kicked out of them leaving us debt. Do you know how many times the bailiffs have been around? You don't want to know. My nana died, grandad died, dad died... all my f**king family dies. It's a curse. If it isn't that, it's some kind of trouble like the police or something. I've never been normal myself either. I be quirky, eccentric and funny to hide my true emotions. I don't even get a proper sleep. There's been so much abuse in this family... And this is from your "friend" Vivi. You know, the happy-go-lucky guy that always listens and always talks. I mean, I'm sick of lies. I deal with too much. And, I normally don't act like this. I feel like crying here...
(...) Brian? At least you have brothers. Mine's some douchehat who sold us out for some random bitch who's dumped him and now he's in major debt. My uncle's a complete MORON who also got together with some random bitch, and we've lost countless amounts of money, and now she's gone. So, everything's riding on me getting a degree in college and getting a job. If he dies, I'm ruined. We'll have to sell the house, all the dogs, and everything else possible. Then we'll be able to barely scrap by in some dump of a house. So, yeah, WE CAN TALK.
(...) It happened early to me. I can't remember what he sounded like though. My brother had ADHD at that moment so my mum was widowed and caring for the 3 of us. Brian, Jamie and me. My sister Michaela had her own house and kid but she was always getting into trouble. Don't talk to me about family problems because I've dealed with a whole lot in my short lifetime, Ralz.
(...) If he dies... I'll never be the same.
(...) That's weird, me too. And my dad died from lung cancer when I was four. Sorry to be so blunt but I hope all goes well and it turns out to be nothing fatal.
(No problem.) Sounds like someone I know. My dad... has a spot on his lung. The doctors don't know yet... but it might be... ...cancer.
(Thanks for that...) Yeah, but I should have to be lied to all my life! Come out with the truth from the start or wait till very later like someone did... Think I don't have family problems? My sister had her nipple bitten off by her boyfriend.
(He misses the exxageration...) Now it is. Talking about traitors and lies, and I've got my own share of problems with family stuff, too...
I don't get what's so great about it... It seems like a troublesome day to me.
Today has been the best... day... EVER... o_O So, I had to renew my driver's permit, because I don't have my official license. (I read that as long as I don't have my full license, my tax won't be as high. So I'm waiting until I'm 25 to get it finished. ) Anyway, I went to go renew it, and I had to go back home and get all the stuff: birth certificate, School ID, and Social Security Number. We spent about an hour looking for everything... >.< And then we got back, and I had to take a written test! I got it, and missed six, but still passed. Woot. So, after that, we went to Wendy's for a snack, which was nice. And we had to go get ink from a Staples for a stupid printer. (Yes, the same piece of crap that told me it can't SCAN without ink... o___O) I'm not getting my hopes up that it'll work, either. And then I had to fix my glasses... so I did that... only to realize I fixed the WRONG glasses. I have two pairs, an old one I don't wear anymore, and my new pair. Can you guess which one I wore today and thought was broken? BEST. DAY. EVER.
I want to show them off. It's like the best work I've done since FOREVER.
Hahaha! xD Well, when you get some!
