Pah, now I'm really pissed off. -_-" Breathe in, breathe out, Freya, everything's okay, just stay calm... x..x" Nah, I don't like XII-bashers .,. Hehe ^^" It's the same for me. I also make people laugh quite often. I tend to say funny things in my presentations. ^^ Like when I had to talk about I book in English. xD" We all had to read a book and make a presentation about it. (All, of course, in English, which was the "difficult" part.) I chose a crime and I wanted to make something special, not just tell them "Okay, this book is about..." - So I drew (!! XD) all of the potential murderers and showed them my drawings. All of them were stick-figures - that's why everyone laughed. XD I found it funny, too. ^^ Yep, we're gonna put music over it, because it's our beginning scene. ^^ They just had to walk out of the police station. (Not sure if I've told you before - the whole movie is about murder - and you have to guess who's the murderer ^^) Hehehe XD I like you, we're the same kind of an addicted gamer. XD Reminds me of my brother. He's also got a PS3 now and his girlfriend told me that he plays Batman Arkham Asyl.... damn I still don't know the title of the game << >>"... all the time. XD He just couldn't stop anymore. xD Reminds me of myself, too. When I got FFX I was occupied all day long. ^^" I think I only played for ~6 hours that first day, but it was still much. XD (But I played during the DAY not at night xP) The first weekend of advent... was the last one. .-. So: Yesterday. XD It's no problem if you've forgotten about it. And, erm, seriously, church isn't that important at all. Believing in God is much more important than going to church and listening to a priest. (Sounds as if I'm an atheist, right? XD" I'm not, it's just that I can't identify myself with church anymore.) And yes, such words will probably lead people away from the church. Don't feel guilty. Remember that it is most important to enjoy your life. You enjoyed yours much when playing Oblivion, so that can't be wrong, can it? ^^ Don't let your parents let you feel bad, Corporal Punishment!
Hm. Do you get nervous at all when you have to give a presentation, or do you thrive on that kinda stuff? I get really nervous if I have to do anything in front of someone else, personally. Although if I get people to laugh, I start getting fired up, because I love doing that. So a lot of my speeches involved trying to get people to laugh with goofy delivery and stuff. In a way, I suppose I'm opposite of you, because I don't mind speeking up to the professor in the crowd. I can focus on just talking to the prof., or something, I guess. Well, that's cool that you at least have a goal in mind for your life. Maybe you will figure it out after doing it for a time. Yeah, It's been a long time for it not to come. Hopefully it will come tomorrow. I'm curious now, what the scene was that you were filming, if your actors were talking but had no lines. Are you gonna put music over it, or something? So yesterday, after I wrote you, I started playing Oblivion at like 4 PM. I did not stop playing Oblivion until 6 AM. At about 10 PM, I ate something. My roommates asked me if I wanted to watch a movie with them, and I said "yes, but start it without me." And I just played through. When it was like 3:30, I thought, "maybe I should go to bed." Then it was 5, and I was like "Oh... just a little bit longer..." and then it was 6, and I was like "Eeeeewwww..." and just went to bed. I didn't go to church this morning, consequently. So after telling you that the only wasted time is time not enjoyed... Too much reading and sitting in front of the computer, eh? Too much staring at words? Don't forget to be taking breaks every couple hours or so, missy! *shakes a finger* Um, in the Catholic Church, I'm pretty sure we follow the advent calendar. It's only a month, right? This weekened was like the first weekend of advent, or is next weekend? I wouldn't know... I didn't go to church, heh. My parents were like "Church is important, you know. You shouldn't skip it." *shrug* I would say that that kind of thing is what drives people away, but they can do that to me and make me feel guilty about it. Good luck with your school, lady! Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Still it's not the same font as usual... something's wrong with my eyes ;_;" You're right. I don't want them to guide me that much. I'm not 12 - I'm 20 years old! << >> I don't need a guide, I need information. I'm at university to learn something - by myself. I don't want them to tell me what I have to learn. I don't have much problems being the center of attraction - at least when I know something. xD Which is definitely the case in Math AND English So that's not the problem. For example, I love making presentations. <3 I like to stand in front of a crowd, everyone looking at me. Though nobody will ever understand it... I just don't like being IN a crowd and everyone's looking at me. XD" I don't know why it's like that. ^^" And I want to teach 11 to 17 year olds. ^^ (I suppose I'll treat the 17-year-olds differently than the 11-year-olds, just so you know. XD") Please don't ask why I want to become a teacher... I don't know. I just feel like I want to do it.. :/ But I've not figured out WHY yet... I don't know, to be honest. I didn't listen to them and I don't care about what they want. They probably won't achieve anything. ^^" The PS3 still hasn't arrived?! o_o" Damn, that takes a long time, doesn't it? <.< Hehe, our actors didn't have anything to say, but they made our cameraman giggle a lot of times. They had to talk a bit (though you won't hear anything because of the background music x3") and they talked so much sh*t that my friend always had to laugh. XD I'm KIND OF enjoying my life today... I woke up at 12 pm. I felt miserable >_<" Then I got up, ate something and realized I had a huge headache. XD" It's gone now, as I've taken medicine. << >>" But I still feel... kinda dizzy. I get the impression I'm sitting in front of my computer too much lately. But it's the end of the month, so I had to read quite many stories. Today or tomorrow our story-jury will begin to discuss which stories will become the "stories of the month". x..x So I had to read many many things (as many are STILL ill >_<"). [Side note: Hah, I wanted to write "krank" now... Nice~] Btw. Do you have a advent calendar? Do you even have something like that over there? XD" I don't know anything about christmas in the US. ^^" Maybe you can tell me a few details about it... :3 What I wanted to say: My sister made a calendar for me. And she knows exactly what I like, so it's all about Maths. x3" I still have to find number 1. I have to solve riddles and math stuff to get the answers. I think I only have ~6-7 days by now. So this is what I'm gonna do now: Search in my books (and on the internet) how to solve those damn riddles. xD"
I don't know. I haven't noticed anything different. Maybe I am being oblivious again. I think I understand. You're tired of being "guided," maybe? You just want to be given the information you are to learn, and be left alone from there? Tired of being a "student?" Plus, I know that you are shy, so that would make sense that you don't want to be the center of attention, eh? Are you becoming a teacher because you want to be the guide? But when that happens, you will become the definite center of attention... What age group are you wanting to teach, again? Why do you want to be a teacher, exactly? I did, because I wanted to be like a couple of my teachers from High School. That desire is gone now, I think. Although being a guide of sorts is still a desire, somehow. So these kids hate studying, and don't want it to be an aspect of their schooling. ...that's ridiculous. No format would ever support not studying. They do realize this, right? What exactly do they want the format to be? Do you know? My PS3 has not arrived yet. Hopefully it will be here today. I ordered it the Friday before yesterday, and they sent it out on Monday... And the movie seems to be going slower than my brother anticipated. Although what we shot looks good. We only shot two scenes with me, though, and I wasn't even really acting; I was cleaning off a knife over a dead dog in one, and slitting someone's throat in another. I don't mind, though. But yeah; that's how it goes some days, doesn't it? Did the actors get the giggles and mess up their lines a lot? So, I've had a little bit of an epiphany this morning. I realized that I am always in a hurry about everything, and I stress out about everything getting done. Even when I'm not in a hurry, I try to get from point a to point b as quickly as possible quite frequently. And I need to cut that out. Slow down and enjoy the world around me. Family, friends, nature, etc. Enjoy what God gave us, eh? The only wasted life is life not enjoyed or appreciated. Thought I'd share that with you, for some reason. Hope you're enjoying your life right now, missy! Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Has something in this forum changed? Have they changed the font? Somehow it seems so.. different since yesterday. ^^" Or are my eyes going bad? XD" > Personally, I think smaller classes also sound better, because you have more opportunity to talk to the professor (...) I want to be totally honest to you... I give a **** about that aspect. Really. I love being an anonymous person at university. I like the fact that no one knows you, recognizes you and of course the fact that no one talks to you! x..x What I hated most about school was that I was always in the spotlight and the teachers talked to me so often. I don't like talking to them. Especially while in class. <.<" After lessons it was okay (only if it was my math teacher *hehe* XD). But in lessons I didn't like it at all. Like in my Grammar course yesterday: The teacher talked like my teacher from school. But I'm not in ****ing school anymore! And I don't want to be taught like a school kid, I just want to sit there and listen to what they tell me! Without having to talk. Without having to have contact with the professor. I.don't.like.school. (Yes, I still want to become a teacher! XD~) But seriously, school was quite nice, though I didn't like teachers who wanted me to talk in class. (I only liked when my math teacher was desperate and then asked me, because he knew that I'd know the answer x3") I liked school, when it was school. But at university I don't want to be in school again. (Did you even understand what I mean? XD") > Or are they just like, "gotta study, gotta study, GOTTA STUDY!!" I wished they were like that. No, they're just in the auditorium to strike. .-. They stay there to show: "Hah, we own this place and you won't be able to lecture in here!"... yeah, that's basically all. Studying? They don't do such things! > these people are not as good at school as you, and they're trying to put it in a format that favors them, but not necessarily you? Going so far as to strike? That's pretty lame. It's not that they've worse marks than I have (I guess, haven't written any exam yet ^^"). It's just that they don't like the format. I don't know if it will favor ANYONE at all. I couldn't care less about the format. I'm okay with the format at the moment. It seems they aren't. As I said, they think that studying is just stress. I think that they are stressed because they don't know how to organize everything. Has your PS3 arrived yet? My brother also bought one... I hate him now! XD I wanna have a PS3 too T.T" Our movie... well, at least we're still doing something. ^^" Yesterday we did a few small scenes (we needed ~2 ½ hours for a scene which probably is only 1 minute long *ARGH* ^^"). How about your movie? ^^
I believe you are correct, ma'am; we will probably write more this way College is school. It's just school that you pay for, and that you don't really have to go to if you don't feel like it (unless you do it too often and get dropped.) Personally, I think smaller classes also sound better, because you have more opportunity to talk to the professor (although that's the only kind of school I experienced; all the classes at LB were around 30 people.) College is damned expensive, though. And students stay in the auditorium at night? Do they have money issues, or something? Or are they just like, "gotta study, gotta study, GOTTA STUDY!!" But yeah; college can be more difficult for some people, because they're also working at the same time. Although maybe that's more of a Community College thing... Basically, though, let me get the jist of what you're saying; these people are not as good at school as you, and they're trying to put it in a format that favors them, but not necessarily you? Going so far as to strike? That's pretty lame. Maybe, heh. Although some companies don't tell you one way or another, because they're jerks. Thanks for sharing a little of your positive attitude with me, though ^^ As for the games... I've not gotten my PS3 yet. It went in the mail on Monday, I think. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Hopefully it will come today, because I will likely be out on Friday. Then again, what about Saturday...? But I've been trying to play Fallout 2. It's hard. My roommate summed it up nicely: "So, your job is to go out into this post-apocalyptic world and see if it doesn't kill you?" Basically, yes. The game's like, "Here! Have these enemies you can barely beat, and also these enemies that will kill you every time if you try to fight them (and even at times when you try to get away) right at the beginning of the game!" It's random encounters, too. So, filming tonight. Hope that goes well. Been practicing my lines a lot. How's your movie coming along? You still doing it? Also, hope that stuff with your school gets sorted out soon. Have a nice day, lady! Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Hah, actually, I was right about the messages. Now that you haven't written that much, I feel like I can just answer it right away. x3" It's better to keep it short and write more often, maybe we could even write MORE that way. (Sounds weird, doesn't it? XD") Oh, students don't need any reason to go on strike, actually. =) [/sarcasm] Okay, let's put it like this: We have to pay 500 € each term, and everybody complains about the new system they came up with. They complain that university now is like school. (Yet they want to have smaller groups, leading to more efficiency. In my grammar course there are only ~30 people, most times even LESS. It feels like damn f-ing SCHOOL! >-<") They don't want university to be so.. anonymous. They think (!) that they can't talk to the profs properly and that there is too much stress for them. Personally, I'm pretty much bored and I don't have any stress at all. The problem, basically (is that I'm talking too much right now) is that they don't know how to handle their stuff. Like for example, most times they have problems handing their homework in in time. .-." There are SEVERAL people who do their work ONE DAY BEFORE THEY HAVE TO HAND IT IT! Gosh, how stupid IS that?! I'm doing my homework every Tuesday and Wednesday, it works out perfectly. Perhaps that's why I don't feel stressed at all. <.<" (I complain pretty much about that, to be honest. It's just that they currently STAY at the university, even AT NIGHT. They sleep in the auditorium. O_o" Which means: No lectures in that room. -.-") You shouldn't give up hope. (But you shouldn't be as naive as I am, either. ^^") Maybe they just need their time to see who they choose. You haven't gotten ANYTHING, have you? So the chances are that you're one of those they consider giving the job. :3 (Think positive! ^^) If they'd said "Nah, we don't want that Tom..." they would've sent you a rejection letter thing. :3" You're just like my father. .-." He always thinks that games are a waste of money. I don't think so. If they're fun, you don't waste any money. But perhaps you should rather save your money for christmas presents. xP Sometimes I'm happy that I don't have that problem. I rarely buy something for myself. I've stopped doing that alltogether since I began studying. I need the money to pay for university. << >> (I still have loooots of money, but well, who cares.. xD") Thanks for your advice. <3 I hope I can stick to it. ;3 (And you, too!)
Students went on strike? I didn't know they did that. Why? Do they feel the material is too hard, or something? Huh. In any case, my life isn't all that interesting lately, either. I take every opportunity to hang out with friends, amy annoyed by certain annoying friends (see my thread in GC; in particular, we have been talking to and about the bipolar one a lot lately. The general consesus is that he needs to get over himself, quit whining, and stop wasting his life.) And that of course leads me to think about what I'm doing with my own life. Not everyone can be a bigshot, but do I really want to resign myself to custodial work? And I haven't heard back from that resort place in Germany, so I'm beginning to feel discouraged about that.Turned in another application today with the school district because two different people in the district mentioned it to me and wanted me to, although I don't have high hopes for that either. Oh well. Just need to get by, and get by... and then what? I also spent $200 on a PS3, $38 on two ps3 games, and another $20 on three PC games. So I'm wasting my money, too. So that's what's going on with me. Probably good that you don't punch anybody, really. I don't necessarily mean hard, though; just kinda shove your fist into their body, without much real force behind it. Shove them with your fist type of thing. As for the other thing... I don't remember what we were talking about anymore, really. Heh. So I will try to keep it short, as per your request. I will just say that you stick to your guns. Figure out what you really want to do, and go for it. Just do it. Don't worry about the whole or how difficult it is, just worry about taking things step by step, and trying. That's advice I need to follow, myself. Hope your life picks up again, soon, and gets exciting, ma'am. Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
So, finally I'm in the mood of writing back. My life is so ****ING BORING!! >-< I see myself only reading stories and complaining about stupid persons on the internet. GOSH! O_o" And the stupid, stupid students at my university decided to go on strike, which means that my lecture this morning was cancelled. -.- Which means.. I've been sitting at home the whole day long. o_o" (Oh, it's only 5 pm... whoops, it's so dark out there, I really thought it was 7 pm ^^") Really, I'm not motivated to do anything AT.ALL! -.- I still don't punch anyone. xP I'm not the type of girl to do that. Sometimes I punch someone if I'm happy and someone made a bad joke about me. But that doesn't happen often. To be precise... I don't even remember the last time I punched someone o_o" (But I'd really like to punch a few guys on the internet once in a while... I suppose you know who I mean xD" Lately the admins indirectly said: "Why, we don't even care what you're saying." -.-) > (...) so much as I think "that person has changed," I know what you mean. .-. It's the same for me. I once had a friend who I really liked. But after a few years we both changed so much it didn't work out anymore. .-. But there still are some I wonder why I was friends with them... Some I didn't know that long (only for months...). I suppose most of the time I was just stupid when I befriended those people. ^^" > Sorry for that dismal observation, but that is how I feel on the matter. You kidding me? Why do you feel sorry for telling me your opinion?! o.o" It's not that I have my opinion and won't change it no matter what. ^^" I found Che's post good, too. Yes, also intelligent people are only human and make mistakes - yet the people I talked about found themselves as gods who are great and never make any mistakes. They only see that OTHER PEOPLE (!) make mistakes. Like the stupid boy I was referring too. If he really is intelligent, I'm proud to be totally dumb! Btw. be careful with too long responses, please. .,." I try to stop it every once in a while, because I've made some negative experiences. ^^" I once had a friend in Finland to whom I wrote a whole lot. (I suppose even more than we wrote xD") After reaching 12 pages (!) in Word, we didn't have enough strength left to write to each other. ^^" Someone just stopped writing because we couldn't handle everything. Then we started again after ½ year and then, after reaching too much content again... it stopped. I don't want that to happen to us .,."
Well, you should have. That would've been funny. A lot of the girls in the group punch the guys in the group over small infractions (on like the arm or something, though. Not in the face.) Come to think of it, we're actually a kind rowdy group. I remember I was my friend's "Drinking buddy" at this 25th year reunion thing for a local bar (I know you don't like drinking, but bear with me here.) As we were walking back to the car, we decided we "had to fight," and we kept trying to grab at and push each other over. His wife kept trying to break us up, and call us "retarded" or whatever. He actually succeeded in knocking me over and ripping a button off my shirt. I just thought the whole thing was funny, and I think he did, too. See, so violence is funny! One leg shorter than the other, eh? It's probably good that you found out about this early; my friend's mother has one shorter leg too, but she didn't find out about it until recently. Apparently, she has had a lot of back problems because of it. Nah nah, I love my grandpa. I'm just sad that he's getting old(er; he's always been old since I've been alive) now, and doesn't really communicate as much as before. But yeah, it's kinda odd, isn't it? I never met my father's parents. His father died when he was five, and his mother died in like the 60's or 70's, I think. I kind of grew up taking for granted only have one set of grandparents; not knowing my grandparents on my father's side hasn't ever really occured to me until reccently, and I kind of wonder what they were like. My grandmother looks rather stern in most the pictures I've seen (although they generally didn't smile back then for pictures. It was also undoubtedly hard to lose her husband at such a young age, although she had the older kids to help with the younger ones, I'd imagine.) Y'know, I generally don't think of it as a "why was I ever friends with that person?" so much as I think "that person has changed," or "that person wasn't as they seemed before." There have been a lot of people who have gotten very jaded, sarcastic, rude, and/or cynical since I first knew them. There's a song by Reel Big Fish that goes, "It's the new, it's the new, new version of you. If there's anything I'd like to do it's KILL the new version of you." That song generally has my sentiments on those people down: they think they're improving themselves as people, when really, they're just becoming dicks. "If the world is full of dicks, I should be a **** too, right?" You may be correct about that self-fulfilling proficy with some people. Although the person I know has every reason to be happy; he's married, has children, has a decent job, etc. But sometimes, he'd find himself feeling upset for no real reason at all. Depression actually runs in my family, although I don't really think I have it. There have been times when I have felt down on myself, but never really horribly down on myself, generally I've had a reason, and I've never thought that killing myself was a good way to deal with my problems (though I'd imagine not all of those who are depressed are suicidal.) I must be honest; I feel bad for the train conductor, but I'm not really angry for the guy who took his life, either. Mostly because that cost him his life. It doesn't make a difference to him how many people are sad about his death, regardless of what comes after death. He made a lasting choice, and he's gone now. If I knew him, I'd probably be sad about him, but mostly, I wonder why. What made him come to this decision? I know of a similar incident, involving my cousin: he was driving along, when someone jumped out in front of his car. He went to the hospital, not because of physical injuries, but psychological ones. He saw the person's eyes when he hit the car. It freaked him out pretty good, I think. I saw your thread you started. In particular, it is about smart people turning to drugs because they are depressed about the state of the world, correct? I don't think that all smart people turn to drugs. I think Che's description is a pretty good one; we're surprised when a smart person makes a poor decision. They're still human, even if they are rather smart. They're inclined to make the same bad decisions that any other person in the world would make, because we are all made corrupt by the world, I think. The more you find out about it, the more it corrupts you. Sorry for that dismal observation, but that is how I feel on the matter. ...so have a good day Heh... Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Naaah~ Of course I didn't punch my boyfriend! XD I was a bit angry at him, but that wasn't a big deal either. (Besides, the day after my birthday he broke up with me x3~ So I didn't have a reason to be angry anymore... I was just sad! XD") Nope, no serious problems. Just having a problem with my balance... somehow. The doctor talked so fast I don't really know what he told me. xD It's just that... my left leg seems to be shorter than the right one. ôo" I think it was something like that. This leads to some kind of inbalance. .-." (At least that's what my sister began calling it - and I sticked to it immediately xD) Please don't get this wrong but.. you should at least be happy that you have a grandpa. xD" I won't weep over something unchangable, but I never met any of my grandpas. ^^" The father of my mother distanced himself from our family when I was born (he didn't want to have four grandchildren it seems xD"). The father of my father died when he was young.... Hm, sounds sad, but it wasn't that sad, really. You grow used to such things. .-." But when my mother's father died last year I was first totally sad because I knew then that I'd never met any of my grandpas. ^^" > You can't ignore her, and you can't demod or get rid of her, eh? I CAN ignore her, if I want. But the truth is: I am NOT ALLOWED to ignore her. That's far worse! XD" I can't demod her, because the admins of the forum don't see any problems with her. And getting rid of her... that's why I talk to YOU, my dear. You're Corporal Punishment, aren't you? Hm, I really have to think about that... But I guess I know a good example. You remember the guy I hate but don't know why? One of my dearest friends was (I don't think he is anymore, at least ^^") friends with him, even after I began hating him. I just couldn't understand why this friend of mine liked that stupid guy. ._."" It's not that I told him "How can you be friends with THAT guy????" - we didn't talk about him at all. But I THOUGHT that question (with the 4 question marks XD). But, normally, it's that way: Freya's just broken up with a friend and asks herself: "Why the heck did I even befriend that person?!" XD Like the friend of the thread I made a while ago. ^^" Today I shouted at my mother because of that suicide guy... Can you imagine that they really wrote a long article about how sad all of Germany was that he died???? CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT????? There is a certain person I fell sad for: That's the person who was driving that damn train when that bastard threw himself in front of it! Sadly, the newspapers only see this poor, pooooor trainer who ruined the lifes of many. (He had a wife and a ~6 months old baby!!!!) He's left his family behind! He's ruined the life of an engine driver! And that's what he gets: He becomes famous - even people who aren't interested in soccer AT ALL know him! -.- Okay, Freya, calm down, calm down.... *draws a deep breath* Okay... There still is one positive aspect. They claim he's had a depression. So know the whole country will probably recognize that it really IS the most common illness in this damn country. <.<" (I know it exists - but I doubt that it is that widespread. Some people who are happy throughout their life sometimes claim they are depressed, just because they happen to have one day in a year on which they're not feeling well. -_-" I just hate that people think that they're depressed. Mostly because if they THINK they are, they'll surely soon be. Self-fulfilling prophecy and stuff. <.<") Hehe, that's no problem, my dear. x3"" I've decided to record an other song, too. I sang Toki no Hourousha quite a lot but I still think it sounds awful. But I'll probably do any other FF song so that you know the song. x3" So~ Now I'll probably search for a discussion in the ID forum... There is a certain topic I'd like to talk about... << >>
Heh heh. You should tell me your birthday, so I can... I dunno. But if I'm over there for over a year, it is sure to pass at least once That sounds awesome, what your boyfriend did. I'll bet you gave him heck over that, eh? Haha. Did ya punch him? And having a problem, eh? I hope it isn't anything serious, ma'am. I will keep that in mind in my prayers. I went ice skating today, and fell down several times, including once when I fell with my leg bent underneath me. Now my knee is sore. I'm gonna make it heal fast, though! It's gonna work! I wish your father was my grandpa! ...nah, my Grandpa is awesome. Although he's old and doesn't hear very well anymore. Recently, I asked him a question, and he responded by giving me a high five. It in no way answered my question. I was like "okay... heh." But yeah. Your father sounds like a good grandpa. My dad probably is too. He's got the whole giving in to crying grandchildren thing down. You can't ignore her, and you can't demod or get rid of her, eh? Well, what are you supposed to do? Be like, "Okay, that sucks. I'm not happy that you shared that with me, or are talking to me at all" to that girl? And they don't think that she sucks. That sounds sounds like a common problem in the world; people don't realize or care that their employees/friends suck, and continue to employ them/be their friend. Do you ever see that? Like, a really cool person is friends with a dickhead, and you don't know why? It's like, "They're nice to me, so therefore, I don't care how they treat anyone else." Suicide, eh? ...I dunno. I know that those people probably are not in their right minds when they do it. He probably wasn't even thinking about how it would effect the train's conductor or passengers. Then again, what do you say to those people who had to witness it? It's like the person didn't care about anyone else, which is selfish. And it's selfish in the fact that these people are probably leaving others behind to deal with their decision and loss. But someone I know has tried to commit suicide a few times. He sees a psychiatrist now, and has meds to keep him regular now, and he feels bad about what he put the rest of us through. And the ways he tried to do it weren't very effective: starving himself, and alcohol poisoning (during which he confessed to his wife he was doing it.) Depression is real. I will say that. You do whatever you feel like to help me, ma'am. I will appreciate as much or as little as you decide to do. Speaking of mics, someday, I will sing and record you a song, ha. I was thinking about doing something other than Dream Theater though, if that's okay; something I know better. Yeah, I've seen it a bit more recent than you; watched it the first time in December 07, and the second time like in February or March of this year (that was actually the first time I watched the whole series through.) The majority of it isn't really all that nice to remember, anyway, so don't feel too bad if you don't, heh. Film the shooting, eh? If we had a second camera, we might be able to do that, but I don't think we do. There would also need to be someone else to operate that second camera, heh. I don't think it would really be all as exciting as you might think it would be. Glad you like my roll, though! I need to study it more... I've only looked at it one day this past week. I looked it over a number of times that day, but that won't be good enough. Luckily, we aren't filming until next weekend after all, anyway; the actor that couldn't do it Saturday can't do it at all this week. So yay for my slacking not doing me in! Have a good week at school, ma'am! Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
I guess I won't be annoyed with you if you forget something I told you. Y'know, I like to talk quite much, so I won't even know what I've told you. xD Today I even said to my mother: "Wait - have I even told you that?!" XD" I had to go to a doctor on Wednesday and he told me many things about my.. erm, let's just call it problem. xD" And I forgot to tell my mother parts of it. ^^" So I told her today and wasn't sure which parts I told her and which I forgot. ^^""" But I'd probably get annoyed if you ever forgot my birthday. *lol* Just kidding. ^^ My ex-boyfriend had sent me a message at exactly midnight on my birthday - but it wasn't some "happy birthday"-message... he just wanted to tell me what he had been doing that night! XD I first got mad at him, but now I find it funny. xD Hehe, I can't wait to have my parents taking care of cute little babies x3~ My father'll probably be a good grandpa, he really enjoys telling fantasy stories. ^^ He did that at lot when we were younger - and most times we actually believed in every word he'd said. xD" Hehehe, I'd really like to do that. ;3 My best friend would probably cheer for me if I did. xD But I can't. I know that the admins wouldn't do much about it, but they would probably (again) try to tell me what is right and what is wrong. *rolls eyes* It was sooo~ annoying when they wanted to tell me that I just can't ignore a person I dislike ~..~ Sooo~ annoying... as if they were my parents. (If they were my parents I'd probably had shot myself. <_<""") Besides, may I ask a question about moral and stuff? A few days (maybe even a week) ago, a famous (I didn't know him, Mom didn't know him either, but he seemed to be famous xD") soccer trainer commited suicide. But no, he didn't do it at home. He killed himself by jumping in front of a train. (Is there any better description of that? xD") What do you think about such people? Well, the basics of German are quite easy. .-. Just switch an "e" to an "a" and you know how to say "hello" in German. xD In my phonetics & phonology course at university I'm learning how to transcribe words. :3 Then I could write it down for you so that you know how to pronounce the words. ^^ Or I could make an audio file for you... If my microphone ever works again. <..<" I don't remember if the Evangelion movies bothered me. .-." I can't remember anything about them at all. XD" I just know that many people died, Asuka was Berserker and Shinji and Misato kissed. Yay, I've such a great memory. <.<" Did I mention I saw the movies a few... many years ago? XD" Besides, "Come, Sweet Death" is the correct translation. How did you know? ^^ Hehe, after reading through the script a bit I felt a bit sad. Mostly because I know that the movie my friend and I are shooting isn't as great as your brother's. xD" Then, because the roles are sooo~ great! >_< I wanted to have a psycho in my movie, too, but my friend didn't want one. XD" I love the role of Christian! <3 And I'd really like to see the movie *_* And how you shoot the movie. *_* Can you film the filming for me, please? XD
See, I remember a lot of things, but then I won't remember something that you actually want me to remember, some day. And then you'll be annoyed with me, haha. Hm... have I offed her? We'll just have to wait and see... Maybe your dad is like a traveling salesman, or something. Goes around and gives his sales pitch, and whatnot. My father is also retired. He has actually been retired since like 2000, I think. My mom hasn't worked for years, either. They're full time grandparents, I think, and like to babysit my sister's children a lot (and my brother's, when the chance arises.) There were a few times when it was very funny to watch my father "trying" to take care of a baby; getting frustrated and yelling to my mom. "Jaw! He's doin' somethin'!" Your mother sounds like an invaluable source of help. *thumbs up* You should make an executive decision and just ban that guy. Be like, "I'm tired of 'im. He smells funny. And he's stupid.What, you wanna fight about it?!" when the other mods ask about it. Heh. I think you actually just learned an incorrect term that my group likes to use a lot. See, there was this one time when my current roommate was fasting, and we went to this campsite where this other friend's family and friends were staying. When he got there, some of the women there somehow found out and made him eat. Someone said that he got "mothered." I thought it was funny. I would like it if you tought me some German, ma'am. I asked my friend to teach me some, and she was like, "Like what?" And I was like, "Basic stuff." And she was like "I dunno what to teach you!" And that's how it went, ha. Although I believe the resort I'd be working at is on an American base, so I assume there would be a lot of Americans there (the thing also said learning German was unnecessary.) I'd still like to learn, though! Actually, it was a different song with like this soaring women's choir part and percussions. It was very energetic, and the track from the soundtrack was like two and a half minutes long. I don't remember what it was called, though. "Komm, süßer Tod" (meaning "Come, Sweet Death," right?) Is an interesting song. The happiest suicide song ever! So, did any of that movie bother you? Because one time when we were eating at Taco Bell, all of the sudden I remembered Giant Naked Rei (Rai? all of the sudden, I've gotten a brain fart apparently) disintigrating, and I felt ill, heh. So an interesting thing happened yesterday while I was working. I will explain in detail what's been going on. First of all, my brother gave me his script a while ago, and was like, "You're this character." And I thought, "cool." He didn't tell me when we were going to start filming, however, or what the schedule would be. A few weeks back, my friend invited me to go ice skating this Sunday, and a surprise birthday party for his wife the next night, and accepted. A couple days later, my brother told me we'd start filming that same Sunday, and I told him I couldn't. He said they'd do the parts without me that Sunday, and that I could start the next weekend. Well, last week on Friday, he told me that we were going to start that Sunday. Literally giving me two days to learn my part, where I thought I had two weeks (I would've started that week, but I worked every day, and didn't really have time to study it.) So I told him I couldn't do it that weekend, and I still couldn't do it the following weekend. So he asked me, "How about Saturday?" And I was like, "Sure." Well, last night, he texted me, asking if we could do it Monday night instead. I had that party, so I told him I couldn't. So he threatened to recast my part in one text, and before I could respond, had decided to go ahead and do it in the next text. I complained that he kept on changing the schedule on me, and he said "I have to do it when the other actors can do it. One of them can't do it this Saturday. You want me to tell them you can't do it on Monday, too? That won't look good." And I said, "I told you I could do it Saturday. So I'm the only one who gets punished for this? Good luck finding someone else who fits the part as well as I do, and who can also learn it in a few days. I'll remember this." The next text from him was, "Can you do it this Tuesday?" and I was like, "Sure." In any case, hope you have a good weekend! Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
You remember EVERYTHING, don't you? XD Yep, it was the same girl. And I actually couldn't care less at the moment. :3" There is enough happening outside of the forum, so... who cares? XD" Besides, she hasn't been online (at least in the forum!) for a couple of days now. Or - wait! - have you already taken her of her?! *___* Wow~ 12 kids... that really is much! o_o I just know that waaay back in time it was quite normal to have so many kids. Now it's definitely not. ^^" Basically, most families over here are rather.. small. 1-2 kids is the normal amount of kids people have. .-." Hah, my father'll soon do nothing anymore. He quit his job as a... dunno what it's called, I don't even know what he does. XD" I just know that he often has to travel to other countries and take care of costumers there. (He works at a company which sells and produces printing machines. I don't know if they're known in the US, but they're quite popular around the world. x3") But as I said, soon he'll not work there anymore. But I don't know what he'll do. First he'll have a good time, I suppose, staying at home, doing some work in and around the house. Such stuff. x3" My mom'll also change her working place soon, but she'll do a similar work. x3" She just hasn't got much to do in her current job. She does... ehehe, something which contains taxes. ^^"" Helping others out and stuff... I really don't know anything about it, as I don't care about taxes much. xD" I just know that my mom can calculate how much money I'll get when I work. xD No, I don't dislike him becauses he likes me. He's done some crazy things... I remember that I had an argument with him when I wrote the journal entry. But, honestly, I don't want to remember every detail. I just know that I dislike him because he's done so much wrong. Now that I think of it, I remember he once insulted my best friend... that's reason enough. XD" Hehe, I know exactly what you mean.~ I also encourage people to do something to me so that I can feel better. Like provoking people just to let them know afterwards that I won't fight them because I feel like I'm better than them. (And I let them feel that.) Nice, I learned something today. xP I didn't know that you can say "mother someone" ^^ There is a similar expression in German, I wouldn't have dared to translate that. xP But nice of you to think that this is cute. ^^" I actually find it rather annoying. Hehe, I could just imagine that Germans are no fun. xP Especially because you won't be able to understand them. I could of course teach you some German before you come here, but you wouldn't be able to understand everything. And you're in Bavaria. So I should probably teach you Bavarian German XD Okay, all serious again: Will there be many Americans? Hehe, I just sign your paragraph about NGE. *signs* ^^ As for End of Evangelion, I don't like the song, but I think I know which one you mean. Perhaps you'd like to listen to it again, so here's the title: "Komm, süßer Tod" ^^ At least I THINK it was that song. I've seen End of Evangelion yeeeeears ago, so I don't remember every detail. I just remember everyone being so excited about that song I didn't really like at all. ^^" And I remember it was a German title. (As Asuka is also German x3") I hope I'm not mistaken. << >> *looking at her e-mails* Yay!!!! =D Something to read again! *happy* (It's not that I haven't got anything to read... more precisely, I read every day. So far I'm at ~15.000 words each day. x.x" And - no, it's not homework for university. xD" I read stories of people on a site because I'm in a jury there. And one of our jury members can't do anything at the moment, so I know have to do her work. xD" It's not that bad, actually, but it's sooo~ much to read x..x" I wonder when I'll begin to dream about the 90.000 words story XD")
