If you decide to go to university, you won't have that money anymore.... unless you go working while studying. (Can't recommend that, though. It will wear you out someday :/ ) Sounds like nice courses to take. Do you remember anything you did at all? Was it useful stuff? (Mostly it isn't useful at all. ^^") Gosh, selling ice cream @_@ I wouldn't want to do that. Especially when it's hot outside, you really don't have any air to breathe. When the theme park I worked in had about 20,000 visitors once, I didn't have any break and I was busy from 12 to 4 as well. And then, on rainy days, there weren't hardly 1,000 visitors and you had NOTHING to do and just waited for customers to come. -.- That was boring. (Though better than customers yelling at you because they're hungry.) Recession is also over here, sadly. I wish it'd be different. -.- It's been that bad since I started to look for jobs two years ago. It seems it didn't get ANY better. Still haven't found a job, but I've two new ideas as to where to work. Uni is still shit. Guess what happened: I failed. I really failed. Failed-failed! Not just getting a D - I really failed. (Probability...) So now I'm frustrated once again. I've the feeling I'm not able to cope with my life at the moment. Probably need some time for myself. Just thinking about what to do next. And learning. I can resit the Probability exam in the first week of May. And that's really the first time for me to resit an exam. You can probably imagine how frustrating that is. Now I really hope that I passed the other math course. :/ Actually, I told my boyfriend not to do anything at all. ^^" He bought me flowers and chocolate about two weeks ago and I STILL haven't finished eating it. (The chocolate, not the flowers.... ) Today we wanted to go out eating something in a restaurant. That's another reason I'm frustrated - no restaurant was open. We had to drive home hungry. (Or rather: I drove him home and then drove home to my place.) And the best... or rather worst thing is that the friend who really pissed me off two weeks ago is online yet again, after being absent for about ten days. I suppose she's something BIG to say now. And she's probably wondering why I haven't written her back. And then she'll bitch again. Oh, yeah, life's so great... And now I'm gonna go to my emo corner in my room and don't bother you anymore <_<"
Heh. They don't do stuff like that. Every once in a while,they go on a cruise a trip to the coast or whatever, but mostly they do not lavish themselves. I mean, I could probably afford those things, myself. But money is pretty tight with everyone around here these days. And what they're living on now, they pretty much have to live on for the rest of their lives. I think I was a lucky fellow, heh. I only took two math courses in College: College Algebra and Trig. 111 and 112, respectively. Wonder if I'd still place there now, though; it's been like seven years since I've done any math at all, heh... wow. Yeah, I suppose that's true. And thank you for trying to save me, but I've already worked in the food industry, scooping ice cream one summer at a deli in Yellowstone. That was pretty much hell; the line never stopped from like 12:30 PM to like 4:30 PM. Sometimes there would be slow days. Those were the best days. Although somehow I think I'd do better there now. But working with customers in general generally sucks. That's why I try to be a janitor; you don't have to deal with anyone for the most part. You just have to clean up after them. Yeah. The school will be looking "meh" again probably soon, heh. Although I guess it's not so much that he doesn't get the work done, so much as he's slow, and gets hurt a lot because he's old and falling apart, heh. I've been doing extra work though, which he probably won't have time to do. Good luck finding a job, ma'am. It can be rough. I hear it's that way all over, too, and not just here where there's a recession going on (which is supposedly over...) I'm sure you'll find something, though! And Happy Valentine's Day to you as well! I'll bet your boyfriend has something planned for you... Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
It's quite the same with my parents, though they always tell me that they don't have money and then buy expensive things. ^^" But I can definitely understand that you don't want your parents to pay for you if they already claim not to have enough money. :/ It's always frustrating that you can't live your dream without money. It's the same for me, I have to pay for every term and have to go working in summer. (And I SHOULD also work in spring, but... well, that's another problem in my life currently. ^^") You're not dumb. You probably don't like maths as much as I do. Or you really were a lucky fellow who didn't have to do Probability. And yes, your definition was right. Working CAN be stressful, as well. Last summer I worked in a theme park... I don't want to talk about it that much, but... well, to put it shortly... since then I hate hungry people. ^^" (Don't ever work in a restaurant... hungry people can be VERY angry and they'll piss you off if they don't get their food when THEY want it. -.-) Pah, I suppose he won't work as good as you did. And I hope you'll find new work soon. :/ Sitting at home, not getting any money, is so boring. ^^" That's why I really want to work in March and April. I even called about ten firms today, but no one needs a worker right now... That's frustrating. I suppose I'll have to work in the next big city. Probably I'll find something there. :/ Oh and happy Valentine's Day! I hope you have a nice day. I had, so far, just because I don't care about Valentine's Day that much. XD I didn't get any chocolate and no flowers. That's great!
They've always been kinda poor. I don't know how much money they have left; both are retired, and beyond that, they paid for the majority of the bills when I went to the community college. Plus, it's an art school, so that'd be more expensive than a regular university, I think. (I wanna go to art school and refine my talents, I think. Make my 72nd and a 3rd comics look really awesome, and also start projects I want to treat more seriously.) There is actually a position in the Army National Guard that apparently involves graphic design, but I'm afraid they'll tell me that I can do that, and then when I get in, tell me I'm doing something less pleasant after all (I've heard stories about them doing things like that. Promise something to get you to sign up, and then go back on it.) At the very least, it would pay for my schooling... I got a couple years for it to still be an option. Okay. For some reason, probability didn't sound quite right to me. Probably because I'm dumb, heh. But it makes sense now. It has to do with the mathematical equations to give a numbered chance that something will happen, like a percentage or a fraction or something, right? Well, I hope that things go better for you from here on out. Working is so much less stressful than school, heh. Speaking of work... the guy I've been filling in for is coming back this week. He will be working days, so they can determine if he's fit to continue working or something. I have a feeling he will be able to continue working, though. We're guessing he'll hurt something else in a month or so though, so then I'll be back in Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Oh, so THAT was what you think is cute. ^^" I really misunderstood you. But okay, that CAN be cute. Sometimes. How about your parents? Can't they help you? :/ And you could perhaps live in the city in which the university is...? Wouldn't that be possible? I'm really frustrated sometimes, hearing that people can't live their dreams... What would you want to study? Probability - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Hah, it actually IS just called Probability Y=2X rather is Analysis. :> You can probably be very happy that you never had to cope with Probability. It really, really sucks. Especially when it comes to density functions @-@ Yes, with a D you still pass. But, as you already said, it doesn't look good... thankfully my final grade will be the average of all maths courses I did at university. ^^" So a single D won't be that bad. But if I fail at THREE exams and get THREE D's, it'll be bad. :/ Then the other grades should be better. I think there are only... ten grades or so. Maybe eleven or twelve. But not that many. 3/12 = 1/4 @_@ Why won't you work anymore after next week? Did something happen? And, yeah, April's still far away. So take your time. Your taxes probably only take a few minutes. So you still have enough time for it.
I don't think it's cute that you can spell words. I think it's cute when you get flustered over something small like that. I revel in other people's pain, haha. Yeah, I could, if I had the money, and I actually knew what I wanted to study when I got there. I have some kind of idea, but I don't know if I could afford the school I want to go to, which is also an hour and a half drive from here... You might have told me that before, and I may have forgotten, because I'm a dork. And University is probably gonna be harder, heh. It generally is; they're grading on a higher level, and expect a bit more out of you. Probability? Hmm... I'm not sure what that could be. Is it X=2Y, and that kinda stuff? Or is it your Tans and your Sins and etc? The highest I went was Trigonometry, and I was glad to be done with it. Good for you that you like math, though. It probably means you're smarter than me, heh. What do you mean, you keep on Failing, btw? Are you supposed to get at least a 3.0 or something to pass? D is still a passing grade here, though it doesn't look good... Heh... Still haven't done 'em. It's okay, though; I have until some day in April. And I have kinda been thinking about them. And, after next week, I probably won't be working at NAMS anymore, or probably anywhere near as much as I have been, so I'll probably have free time... Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Trust me, I wouldn't ever do such things. I'm way too rational to do that. At least I hope so. (And I hate to hurt myself... I can't hurt myself @_@) Cute?? XD I hope YOU don't think I'm cute just because I'm not able to spell words correctly! XD Okay, now I'm confused. So you COULD go to uni if you wanted to? And you said you wanted to go there? Then, is there a reason for you not to try..? Besides, does it cost much to study at a university? :/ Oh gosh @_@ The director really seems to be a strange person. I hope he won't call you again. Erm... you know, actually, I'll teach English AND maths ^^"" So it's quite good for me to have maths courses. Haven't I told you that? I think I always talked about English because I kinda "train" myself on TFF. ^^" I had another maths exam today and it wasn't that bad. But I thought the one last Saturday wasn't bad either. So... I guess I passed, now I have to wait for the results. Then I'll know how good or bad I passed. ^^" But in school I didn't understand anything in the course (probability and such, don't know how it's called in English and WAY too lazy to look it up ^^") and still had A's all the time. So I really hope it'll be the same for university. XD (Though I'm quite sure I understood most of it. And I'm ****ing proud I understood most of it!!!) Maths is great for me. I just keep on failing and it really bugs me. :/ Shall I remind you in every VM that you have to do your taxes or have you done them already?
Well, that's good. I'd rather you didn't do those things. If not your parents, then maybe you got it from someone else. Just find somebody else to blame! Not that it matters that much; it might even be an endearing trait to some. "Look at how flustered she's getting! Isn't it cute?" Heh heh. I don't believe so. I'm pretty sure the SATs were a High School thing; specifically for the Junior year of High School. Otherwise I think I'd have tried to take my SATs my senior year, because I started to care then. Seems as though you're supposed to do all the University scouting and applying your Junior year, for some reason... Although I do have a Transfer degree from my college, so if I knew what I wanted to do for sure or had the money or whatever, I could go to a Uni. Well, he hasn't called me back or anything, but I know he's planning a reshoot at a different location, and the one guy has agreed to doing it again. It's going to be some time from now, though. My bro told me this; the director thinks we should do it later to recuperate from the last experience, heh. Sorry to hear that, ma'am. Math is the devil! How many more Math courses do you have to take? At least then you'll be done, and probably never have to deal with it again. (Seriously, why should a teacher of English have to take advanced math courses?) Don't give up! Give 'em hell! ...I have not done my taxes. Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
No, I haven't died. No, I didn't commit suicide. But I still fail. Nargh! Hm, so far I had the feeling my parents always knew what they were talking about - and also found the right words for it. So unfortunately I can't blame my parents.. XD Isn't there a way for you to take the SATs NOW? Over here, you can take nearly every exam even when you already work. You have to do a whole LOT and mostly you have to study in the evenings, but it IS possible. That's strange. Has he called you back? I somehow hope he didn't. It doesn't seems as if he's a nice person. Oo" On Saturday I took my other maths exam. On the same day they corrected it. (They're... crazy. ^^") I only got a 4.0 (D, I suppose) That sucks. Especially as I was sure I did quite well. :/ Whatever... But now my motivation's gone. Still have to take 3 exams until the end of the term. Nargh. I hope you've done your taxes xP
It's how I do, ma'am Now have a good rest.
Thank you very much for encouraging me. <3 I really appreciate it! And I feel much better after reading your message. I'll answer yours tomorrow, though. I have the feeling I should go to bed soon. I have to get up at 7 am tomorrow and I shouldn't be all sleepy in my exam. ^^" So, good night!
Do your parents do it,too? Because I'm pretty sure I can blame it on my mom, heh. She does it too. We also both can't things that are right in front of us sometimes. And I have times where I'm that descriptive about my day, too. "Um, I did something. Definitely something." Yeah, if you got good enough grades and took the SAT's and got a good score on those, you can go straight to a university. I didn't go to the university because I didn't take the SAT's, and my junior year, my grade point average was below 3.00, which is kinda bad. I got it up to 3.07 after my Senior year, but Junior year is the year you're supposed to do stuff to get ready to go to college/uni, I guess. I was kinda lazy until my Senior year, and now I regret it. Yeah, I think cats are at like 15 cat years when they're one year old. So she's like a teenager still. Also hear that's the time they're like the least cuddly, and just want to be independent and break crap. We'll see if he calls me back. Somehow I get the feeling he wasn't impressed with me the other day, because I don't think I could hit a line exactly like he wanted me to. I needed to show dejection, but I needed to say the line loudly because the camera was down the street, and I don't talk very loud, so in order to get that line off I needed to yell practically, which loses the inflection. He was confusing about what he wanted anyway, though. First I'm angry, then I'm dejected, then I'm pissed again, and then I'm the character's buddy and all happy and crap, and then I'm pissed at him again. He also wanted me to do things I kinda felt were unnatural and over the top for me. But yeah. Well, damn. You think you failed? But maybe you did better than you realize. If this was the one you were sure you were going to ace, I have a feeling that you almost definitely did better than you think. Maybe a C. Don't give up until you see your grade! I had tests like that too, and when I got them back, saw I did better than I'd thought. Don't lose hope about your next test, either! Just get in there and get 'er done! Come, now. Things are bound to get better. They always seem to for me. You gotta go through a rough period of your life sometimes to realize how awesome the good periods of your life are, right? My life is okay right now. There are things I'd like a little bit better, but then there are things that are much better than they have been for months (like my financial status, heh. Still haven't done my taxes, though...) I hope things start to look up for you soon, though. Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Hah, guess who also has brain farts all the time - yep, me. ^^" Sometimes you switch your brain off, it seems. I did that a lot today. When my boyfriend called me and asked me what I'd done in the last half hour I even said: "I don't know. I know I did something, but I didn't think about it, so I... just forgot it." @_@ Ooor the last message I wrote to you.. shure... *SHUDDERS* So, basically, you're able to go to university after finishing High School? I thought nearly everybody went to College in the US... but I'm probably mistaken. ^^" Why didn't you go to university? It seems it's not as complicated as in Germany. (Over here you have the choice of THREE types of school, and only one ends with being able to go to university. It seems to be way easier at your place. Surely you don't split the classes after the Elementary School. ^^") If I remember correctly, my sister got the cat from her husband last year in April. So it isn't that old. A year or even one and a half. Still pretty young. Buut! We have an older cat at our place (at home) who doesn't really like to play anymore. She's... ten years old I think. At least she's pretty calm. She's just noisy at night when she feels lonely. (At least we think she feels lonely, as our second cat died last year in summer.... died... or rather: disappeared. But I've given up hope that the cat still lives...) XD This director seems to be a funny guy. A jealous bartender... yeah, right. ^^ Will you be at the shooting again, if he really manages to shoot again? Maybe you don't feel like shooting with this guy anymore, like the other ones... Wow, seems like your work was even enjoyable! My schooling... well, could be better, could be worse. I must admit, I was pretty proud of myself for the first two terms, as I didn't fail in ANY exam I'd written. (Okay, sometimes it still was a D, but I couldn't have done it ANY better XD") But today, in my maths exam... I think I failed. You can't imagine how bad I feel. Especially in maths!! T_T It feels like... like... I don't know. Just failing. I understood EVERYTHING in the lectures and learning it was fun and... I even wrote in the last message that I understood everything. THAT WAS THE CASE!!! But I still failed today. Tomorrow I'm gonna do another maths exam (I have three this term. I admit that was a stupid idea. I should've known that was way to much for me...) I'm really interested if I'll fail again. But this time I'm really sure I'll pass. Gosh I was also sure yesterday. T_T"" Sorry if I bothered you with my whining, but I'm just frustrated at the moment. And I suppose it's good for my writing skills if I whine in English. Haha. My humor's gotten quite black today... I really, really hope you've a better life, better friends and more success at the moment. I really wish everyone a better life than mine was in the last few days. (Friends, because a good friend of me started a fight. And no, I won't whine about THAT as well. I tried to distance myself from that conflict because of my exams @_@) And now I've written so much again @_@
Heh. I probably could've figured that out on my own, but I had brain fart or something, and was like, "buh, exams = finals. Always." And yeah, that's always a good feeling. You go in there and are like, "I'll take my A+ now, thank you!" I had a few of those. Mostly literature classes, although at least one that comes to mind was a social studies class. History of Asia! Community Colleges are the two year schools that you go to because you slacked off a little bit in High School and didn't get invited to any Universities. You can get a transfer degree and go to a University afterwards, having already completed two year's worth of school already, theoretically. At Community College level, you could be starting your studies to be a teacher, but you need your master's degree to teach, I think, and that you can only get at a University. How old is this cat? If she's older, than that doesn't give me much hope for my cat not being ornery in the future... Maybe they just need to be kicked outside into the harsh winter weather for a while. Or a beating. Or both. Okay, your teacher was a jerkface. I get it My brother told me to like an hour before I was going to leave, but I misunderstood and thought that he was saying he wanted a ride. This guy was also trying to call me that morning, but he couldn't, because my phone was turned off, because its battery had completely died the night before apparently and it wouldn't stay on. Also, I saw no messages when I turned it on, though he says he left some. In any case, I saw the director make a wall post on facebook last night, saying he's gonna try to reshoot somewhere else, and that he doesn't know why he got kicked out. Said it must've been because he was dancing with some girl, and the bartender was jealous, heh. An interesting story. Work was easy, compared to the night before when I was by myself. Very easy, in fact; I got a bunch of extra stuff done, and was still done early, heh. Hope all is well with you and your schooling, as well! Anyhoo... Wuv, Yer Mom
Well, they're called mid-term-exams, so they are exams, but not the final ones. ^^ I'm just too lazy to write "mid-term" each time. Besides, I'm taking a break again XD But I stopped to take a break an hours earlier than yesterday. :> And as for now I'm pretty sure everything'll be fine tomorrow in my (mid-term-)exam. That's a great feeling... knowing you'll be able to handle everything. Hopefully I'll get a good grade, too! I had fun learning for this course, after all. :> Oh and I'm not sure about university in the US... I think it's WAY different from our university. Somehow I get the feeling I'd be on a college rather than university if I were in the US. Where do you actually study to become a teacher?! I really have no clue about the US school system... I know about Junior High and High School - but everything that comes after just left my head a few years ago. That's exactly what my sister's cat does. @.@ Destroying and biting everything she sees. Fortunately there are no posters in the living room, so she can't tear them down... (She would, if there were any, I'm pretty sure she would!) Gosh, and forgive me if you find any spelling mistakes in this message. I feel I'm not able to spell correctly anymore. @..@ (I wanted to write "shure" instead of "sure"... and I'm still not sure if it's really exactly. That word looks so... strange @_@) It's okay. I think she just doesn't like my writing style. :/ Without you there would've been WAY more mistakes, so probably you helped me achieve a 3.0 instead of a 3.7 (which would be D+ !) Did they actually tell you to pick that person up? And WHEN did they tell you? I can't image that they've been angry at you the whole day long.. I mean: Why? The person came to the shooting nevertheless, didn't he/she? So there shouldn't be a problem.. You know, I hate drunk people... So I wouldn't have been able to cope with this director AT ALL. ^^"" I can understand that they're all pissed, due to his behavior. But I wouldn't stop shooting forever because of that... I hope you had fun at work. Or at least didn't have much hard work. I gotta learn again...
