They say the truth hurts, but why does it hurt me when I speak it?
by
, 12-01-2012 at 08:10 PM (2121 Views)
Today was an okay day. Until this evening. I played video games most of the day, and watched some anime. Then like clockwork, Suzy showed up while we were watching a movie. Seriously, why can't do something as a family without being interrupted by her?
I had had enough of it, and spoke up while she was there. After she left, Dad came in and said I need to respect him, and not act like that when people are here. That's why I did it, to show that I am not okay with it.
Some things happened. For one, Dad called me a "Lazy, long-haired, faggoty-A-word M-word." He said that he's been doing everything by himself, paying bills, keeping the house clean, etc. He's the one that said to finish paying off my computer. And I do plenty around the house. Just because he didn't watch me do it, doesn't mean I didn't do anything.
I didn't back down. I can't show respect to someone who hurts me the way he does. I told him as much. I said, "I don't care what you do to me physically. It doesn't hurt as much as when you allow Suzy to be here."
I am alright. No permanent damage. One thing was established, though. Dad won't stop cheating on Mom, and there's nothing I can do to change it. Dad said that Mom will still have a place when she comes home, but I can't see that happening. Fourteen months is a long time. He said that if I didn't like it, I should just move out. I can't do that. I would be throwing away all the work I did to keep the house for the last three years, one of which was all by myself (the other two my brother helped). Besides, I have my dog and kittens here. I won't leave this place, I can't bear to leave them nor can I take them with me.
So, my plan is to act as if he never came back. It should calm everything down. Then I will continue to do so, and hopefully make him realize that he needs me more than I need him. After all, I was able to keep everything going on $50-55 each week. I will pay my share of the bills, and no more. No more lending money to him, no more acting like I'm happy. I will just be happy, pretending I live alone again.
I guess in this entry, you all learned that my life is not all rainbows and sunshine like some may believe. Anymore, it's just normal weather patterns. Sunny sometimes, and stormy others.
But I feel much better after writing it out. I am also texting my sister about it. She called after I sent the first message, and talked to Dad. She didn't make any progress with him either. Oh well. At least Dad can't reach through the phone and get to her. That's a plus.
Enough of this depressing talk. I need to update on gaming stuff.
I played some more of Revenant Wings today. I have finished Chapter 3, and I am working on some sidequests before I start on the story of Chapter 4. As for Final Fantasy VII, it's progressing at a snail's pace. But I am inching my way through it.
(RW) I think it's a little lazy of the character designers to use slightly updated designs, almost identical of the ones in Final Fantasy Tactics Advance. I get that it's all Ivalice, but you would think they would have different outfits or something. And Kytes' sprite reminds me of Arc in Final Fantasy III so much. I find Filo to be a neat character. To think that a hoverboard thing would actually become a weapon in a game is cool. I guess someone listened to Zell's idea and used it.
*For those who do not have a clue (the three of you), I am talking about a scene from Final Fantasy VIII.
I haven't played 358/2 Days in a while. Mainly because I don't like the worlds I am sent to right now. I never cared much for Agrabah or Beast's Castle.
Well, that's all for now. I hope to see you around the forums, and until then...
Later!
Michael