The struggle over the tyranny of my world

Well, not today. Its just... i havent been able to play in so long, and suddenly one of your best friends gives you the new pokemon game? SERHAETJARSJTSJ <3 And when you dont have a DS anouther friend lends you one? SETRHSRTJANS^%$W%@# YES.

So, a summery of my last day. Pokemon. Ive trained my snivy to level 20 and got the second badge. Totally hardcore.

But back to seriousness, i am starting to enjoy things a little more. Could either be because everything at the moment seems to be going right, excluding my parents, that ive suddenly decended to a new level of insanity, or that i suddenly lack the care.

To be more accurate, i think its a mixture of the former and the fangirl coming back. Well, kind of. Maybe. Since giving her my mobile number, i cannot keep my eyes off my phone. Im quite aware that she can probably only use a computer during the day, but either way, ill wait. Or have to.

I kind of dread work tomorrow. I might get a decent amount of sleep tonight, but so far it only looks like i might not have more than a single day. I might be able to spend that money on a decent weekend, probably drinking to myself.. since noone else really wants to.. But i think i need it for a change. I guess I just want to do all the things i havent been able to over the last year. So, I want to drink, listen to a lot of music, play pokemon, and see my friends. The things that ive missed that made up a major part of my life. Also, i might have someone to move out with me. Pedo's (im assuming they'll end up dating, but they insist that they arnt... But they tick a LOT of the boxes..) female friend seems to think its a great idea for him to move out with me in the near future, when im on my feet. I know i can live with him, and it means ill be closer to home on this side of town, but i guess i dont mind. Even my last place didnt really feel like my own. What gets me though is that i SHOULD have been on the last lease that i had, but those damn indians didnt put me on it. THE FRUSTRATION! THE TABLES TO BE FLIPPED! Anouther thorn in my side.

But i just feel good, at least... a lot better than before. its not hope thats doing it either. Otherwise id be worried about myself, and the near future. Its so.. unexpected, though i guess i could have predicted as much assuming circumstances. She is important to me. I was rather happy just knowing she was alive and seemingly in good health.

Thinking of what music i want for tomorrow at work.. Im listening to Drowning pool at the moment, but i dont think thats going to be good..
-searches-
Im actually thinknig Joan Red. I would go entwine/

'Here i am alone again, this bottle plays a constant friend
Going out of my mind i,
Cant forget you're eyes, no
This cant be getting to you
The face is drowning in me,
In madness screaming,
Only alone i,
I used to see myself

I lost myself in you

Love, every time i call for you im lost without my
Love
And only if we make it through
Its all for you my love'


'I remember how you looked at me
With your eyes deeper than the sea,
How i used to tell you i was strong,
Well you believed.

I can make the world stop turning
And i can keep the rain from falling down
I can make your dreams worth living
If only we keep holding on,
If i am strong enough'


Yeah, im going to try and sleep. Since i didnt really sleep at all last night, i can hope that itll be easy. HOPE. Ha! But it might happen. Ha, im probably going to hear out this band tonight and not want to play it all tomorrow... Or maybe not