The struggle over the tyranny of my world

So, ive started applying for jobs again, since its early-year. Ive basically assumed that since a lot of chumps go back to school soonish, there will be a much higher demand for full-timers and part timers. Ideally, id only want something thats part time, but hell, anything to move out, really. Its somewhat required.

Today has been incredibly hot. Had a fan on me all day, but ive still had to drink a heap more than i usually do to make up for the loss in liquids due to heat. That isnt just sweat, btw.

But yes, i require employment. I dont particularly know what im looking for, to be honest. Its so hard, in a way to really think on whats possible for you to do, without really wanting an education at all. And i dont, really. It will conflict with the self learning that im already doing that isnt job related. Or at least, not in the immediate future.

Ive been looking mainly for big name supermarkets and stuff, but noone seems to be looking for people yet. But they will really just be able to do it in the last few weeks and always manage to get someone. Or they will just look for more casuals and attempt to raise the casuals they already know are good to the position. Enough pondering! Eh.

Miss fangirl sent another message today. And for the first time in a long time i saw that person on facebook i thought was her a year ago online. Well, not really online, but had come on while i was out, and still had the 'was online' tag there. I know im crazy and way overthink this (as well as everything to do with her), but eh. It fits together in my mind enough to note. I really wont know untill i speak to her properly or something, which i really hope happens soon. Not that it needs to i guess, but eh.

Yeah, ive had a rather boring day. I should be able to do things myself rather than have to rely on others for amusement, but i do anyways. A few friends of mine said they were interested in starting a vampire masquerade. Im pretty exited for it. I love roleplay, and ive already put masses of ideas together in my head. Problem is, noone has really spoken to me about it or anything, which leads me to think that they arnt really that for the idea now anyways. Makes me sad . Demons even ignored that i even brought up the topic. Like, didnt acknowledge it at all .

Maybe its that i havent had any alcohol tonight or something..

Gahh... I miss you so much