The struggle over the tyranny of my world

So, the wedding went rather well. Was a pretty good day. Went and saw the marrage, had fun, talked to people and got payed. Oh, and i also got alcohol to drink later.

So yeah, im drunk, what of it?

Though, i wasnt last night. I messaged Sam. Someone who was my fangirl's best friend. I just need to know that she's ok. I really want to talk to her, i really want to see her. But i just.. I need to know. I worry too much, i know. But i really do love her. I really do. Cant really deny that too much after ive gone this far.

I talked to someone pretty thoroughly about it tonight. Made me feel a little more calm i guess. Eh, the sad thing is im not really sick of this. Ill wait forever. I just want my fangirl back in my life in some way. She should get her act together and contact me. I mean.. come on.

Oh, i got payed $100 for the wedding. How good is that? Though, i did give them $50 as a wedding present, but still, a net $50 gain with a wedding catering reference is pretty good. Either way, i must sleep before alcohol wears off an axienty comes back. To passing out!