The struggle over the tyranny of my world

Well, it looks like this might be the last post ill make here. As ive said before, ive been playing around with web design for a while now and ive finally got around to making my own forum for my own game design and ill be blogging there (its a little more relevant), however.. i cant really go without a more personal use forum (i dont really want people i know seeing how screwed up i am inside, like some of you probably do). So, this may be the last, or it might not, but i dont really post that ...

Coming up to my last week here alone.

Ive actually cooked a few meals for myself now. Like.. proper meals instead of just heating up frozen food or simplicities like sausages or whatever. People dont believe me when i say i can cook. Though i almost always take the lesser role in cooking when i do with others, i dont lack the ability. I do lack confidence in cooking with others though. My sense of taste isnt exactly similar to that of others... Or at least those that i know. When ...

Well, ive been on my own a week now. Things for me are... better. Yeah, definitely better. I can at least see how i am emotionally for how i really am. Which is pretty damn bad atm. But that can change.

Im becoming reliant on alcohol again. I dont particularly mind, as i have the money to support it at the moment, as well as still being able to save for a bond for my new house. Which i really need to start going towards.. But motivation... :/

I was looking at some people ...

'I wish you could see you're the only girl ive ever dreamed of'

Well, ive missed 2 psychologist appointments now. Its not because i think of it particularly not worth going to or anything, but.. i just dont remember it. Like its not important to me the slightest. I guess ill see how i feel about it in a few months. I dont really want someone telling me what i know i already have, or how to fix it. Theres a few things i can fix myself before then anyways.

While i stay ...

Im actually finally getting a bit more inspiration to continue developing, not that my interest has gone down at all. I dont know where i was when i last posted, but ive pretty much got a general idea of the UI i want, which only needs implementation to find finetune it all. And thats not really likely to happen for a fair while.

Found a game today that from videos, shows vaguely what we want from the space side of things (which overall can be a large portion of the game, depending ...