The struggle over the tyranny of my world

Well, if theres something that can really lower ones self esteem, its jobsearching. Buuuuuttt im feeling optimistic. I feel im getting better at this sort of thing, at least a little. Ive made no progress though. Its only bee a few days though, so i cant really expect to see a reply instantly. Im hoping for at least 1 interview next week before centrelink. Because i dont really have faith in them

Urgh, i cant stop thinking about my fangirl. When will she talk to me? I cant wait -.- ...

Today has been an interesting day, to say the least.

Well, thats anouther saying out... But as the title implies, i was offered a place to live. I will have to pay rent and stuff, as per usual, but with friends. A while ago, she was arguing with this housemate moving out, but things got better. But now he cant actually afford to live with them anymore, so is moving out within a month or so. So... Im basically going to push forward whatever plans i had of moving into that area and ...

'Someone i loved very much back home.
He was my emotional support. Thanks to him i was able to face my mistakes without judgment. I learnt to make them right again. Then i lost him and realised i had to do it alone'

Just a quote from a series im watching at the moment. Ive been thinking a lot on the topic, obviously. Since I always compare people ive been with to.. her.. it makes how i feel about love in general so hard to believe. Well, only because noone makes me as happy ...

So, theres a storm outside tonight. Rather unexpected, and rather heavy. Though not expecting thunderstorms is something you can really expect of someone who doesnt pay any attention to the weather. Its pretty heavy and right after some really hot days too. Im also all for stormy weather. Part of me wants the storm to rain down harder. More thunder, more rain, more chaos.

Maybe its the kind of mood im in. Im bored and waiting. But then again, although i dont really fit the picture, ...

'I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here'

The good and the bad come, but i couldnt care less right now about anything bad that comes my way, as long as it doesnt involve her. It was barely anything, but she managed ...